Eliza May Lester is obsessed with Dan Howell. Phil will not let her meet him, but when she does she feels nothing. She expected fireworks, electricity, the lot, but nothing. Then, with one secret kiss, she was in love. They have to keep their love a secret, for Dan and Phil's friendship would be forever severed. But little does she know that Dan's dark past brings up more than she bargained for.

Dan has set a date. He will wait 6 months and if his life isn't better by then he will end it. Just days after planning this he meets Phil. Things get worse at first, and Dan continues to feel worthless. Can Phil save him before its too late? Triggers: self harm, suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, eating disorders. Phan fluff <3 no sex but all the homo -This is a longer version of my creative writing piece -

Pop-culture phenomenon, social rights advocate, and the most prominent LGBTQ+ voice on YouTube, Tyler Oakley brings you his first collection of witty, personal, and hilarious essays. For someone who made a career out of over-sharing on the Internet, Tyler has a shocking number of personal mishaps and shenanigans to reveal in his first book: experiencing a legitimate rage blackout in a Cheesecake Factory; negotiating a tense stand­off with a White House official; crashing a car in front of his entire high school, in an Arby's uniform; projectile vomiting while bartering with a grandmother; and so much more. In Binge, Tyler delivers his best untold, hilariously side-splitting moments with the trademark flair that made him a star.

Have faith in me, ‘cause there are things that I’ve seen, I don’t believe. So cling to what you know, and never let go.