Prologue How does one find the strength to stand with a defiance rivaled only by his courage? How does one still possess purity when his innocence was stolen? Could one forgive the monsters? How does one learn to love for the first time? How does one learn to love himself? You may not understand, agree or accept the ways one chooses to deal with and surpass the darkness threatening to consume them. But bear witness to the few that rises from the ashes like a phoenix reborn. ***************************************************************************** This book has boyXboy scenes and contains instances where the main character self harms and is abused verbally and physically. If this isn't your kind of pie please don't take a slice. SLOWLY EDITING ************

"Ethan!" The guy yelled. It was Eugene. Why did it have to be him? Why was he the one who followed me? I spun on my heels "What!?" I snapped. I didn't mean to but I did. Eugene held his hands up as if to surrender. "What happened back there?" His voice was soft, like he expected me to lash out if he spoke too loud. "You know what happened" I seriously needed to get control of my anger "you pressured me into that stupid game. And now everyone in there thinks I was reckless. Now everyone is going to look at me like some freak!" I hissed, raising my voice. Eugene frowned "Is that what this is about? You're worried about what everyone will think? I understand that you're upset-" I cut him off "No you don't! You couldn't possibly understand. Eugene, I only care about what they were saying because it was true! The accident was my fault" I raked my hands through my black hair, messing it up more. Eugene stood there, like a gapping fish and I continued to ramble. "Its my fault the car crashed and now Brian is dead-" *** Broken, numb and damaged. Ethan is a boy who could slip through the cracks of society. A drug addict with a bad past. Even the teachers at school have given up on him. Eugene, a boy who had it all. A girlfriend, a large friend group not to mention a set life with his decently wealthy family. But that didn't necessarily mean he was happy. Boys from different worlds meet by chance. In science. With a science teacher who really likes experimenting with fire. Things might get a bit heated.

19 year old Carter is in an abusive relationship and wants to get out but when he tries he ends up in the hospital then the mental hospital. He hasn't talked to anybody since arriving in the first hospital and after being in the mental hospital for 4 months he meets Adrian who is his therapists assistant and he is told to try and cheer Carter up, Adrian is sexy funny and usually never short on things to say. Will carter trust Adrian after being in such a bad relationship or will he end up breaking Adrian's heart or will Talon (Carter's abusive Ex) come back in the picture?

Battling a drug and alcohol addiction, Alex meets someone who will forever change his life. Follow him through his painful yet enlightening journey to wellness. This story means a lot to me because I too am on a journey to wellness and I felt that the only way I could share parts of what I've been through is with a story. If you ever feel low, just remember that rock bottom is the perfect foundation to build your new life. I love you and you are enough.

Ayden Grant is depressed, lonely, and misunderstood. Cameron Reese is popular, a bad boy and arrogant. "I'm your daddy Ayden." highest rankings: #1 in gay #1 in awareness #2 in boyxboy [ boyxboy romance ] Trigger warnings: this book contains sensitive topics such as blood, cutting, suicide and other dark themes.

Emilia Stone is a Junior in high school who is just trying to get through her year. She struggles with her day to day life with first having her mother leave unexpectedly and an abusive father and brother. She has never wanted friends after the incident and feels she can never trust anyone. She has built up her walls over the years and will never let them break. Until an event happens that makes her meet Alexander Jones. What will happen to these two when their worlds collide? Everyone has their problems and issues, right? Stories will get told and secrets come out. But will it help or hurt them in the end? Find out in this story about a girl and a boy. ***TRIGGER WARNING*** For mature audiences. Contains sensitive themes such as Self-harm, abuse, violence, cussing, and sexual scene. This is your warning. |~* I do NOT promote any, disorders, self-harm, abuse or violence in this story *~| I hope my description is good enough to capture your attention but if you don't like my book, don't read it. I'm not forcing you and I'm not looking to become famous. or anything and PLEASE don't copy my book. I'm just making this because the idea popped into my head. So please don't leave hate comments they will be deleted. I do, however, accept constructive criticism. Okay bye Hope you enjoy :) [Under editing] #4 in Romance (10/1/18) #107 Teenfiction (10/23/18) #7 Teenfiction (12/5/18)

(Complete) After Seren is assaulted by someone in her friend group, she begins to fall deeper into the depths of her depression. No one seems to notice, except for the former bad boy and his friends. "Seriously, this is probably the best book I've read on Wattpad." -@dowries "I thought you were bluffing in the description but dang, you got me. Ima say- this truly is one of the best books on Wattpad." -@jamzeverywhere "Easily the best book I have ever read and I'm not exaggerating." - @purelyaureila "Simultaneously shattered me and put me back together, one of the best things I've ever read. Didn't think I could love two characters so deeply." -@imswriting "If I was ever to reread a book- it would be this one." -@thethotpocket "This is my favourite book! I would pay literal money just to continue to experience these characters!" - @sapphhhireee Spin Offs: Notice Me, and Trust Me *****

*Completed, but unedited* Delia, a 13-year-old girl lives with her abusive parents and her eight-year-old twin brothers. She shields them from the cruelties of their parents as much as she can. The twins try to provide her with support but they are all starting to crumble under the pressure. When their parents get arrested, a DNA test reveals relatives they never knew existed, including siblings. Placed in their oldest brother's care will this be the end of their constant suffering, or will life introduce a whole new form of torture?

Theo Bennett has had a rough life. Between his abusive father, neglectful mother and overly protective ex boyfriend his life is rough. Danny Madison hasn't had a rough life. He's just different. He's special. The star football and hockey player and average student hasn't had a rough life. He's a shifter....turning into a large black wolf gives him the strength of five humans. Nothing can defeat a wolf....until Theo moves to town to live with his Uncle and escape the dangers of life back home. Highest rankings Gay Werewolf- 1st 12/12/2021 Gayboys-19th 1/24/2022 Gayships are Yayships 1st 2/11/2022 gay romance- 601st 12/16/2021 Gayaf- 474th 2/11/2021 Gayfiction -762nd 12/16/2021 Gayships - 436st 1/24/2022 Gay pride -74th 2/11/2022

Evanna Halls, a 12 year old girl tries to overcome her mental illnesses while dealing with bullies in school and a divorce from their parents. After a horrific accident, she is forced to move away from her normal life and move in with her dad, who became the step-father of 6 boys, making her their newest step-sister. Jayden, the youngest boy, who is the same age as her, despises her the most. Throughout the book, his backstory, along with many other dark secrets will be figured out. Author's Note:
I wrote this book when I was a teenager, during a time when I was working through a lot of intense feelings and experiences in my own life. The story reflects that period of my imagination and emotional processing. Some of the content involves abuse, bullying, and mental health struggles, and it may be difficult or triggering for some readers. I've shared this story because it helped me feel seen and understood when I needed it most, and I hope it can offer some sense of connection or comfort to others as well. Please take care of yourself while reading.