zhang hao came to college with a violin case and a deathly fear of eye contact. love? dating?? speaking to strangers??? he could never. (he could barely speak to his own parents.) but the universe-or maybe just kuan rui, his loudest, glitteriest best friend and dormmate-has other plans. enter hanbin: psychology major, cafe prince, and full-time mom friend who radiates gentle warmth like a human space heater. with anxiety attacks, tear-streaked presentations, late-night blanket rescues, and strawberry shortcakes baked in matching aprons, zhang hao slowly, so slowly, starts to believe he's allowed to take up space-and maybe even love someone. (and maybe be loved back.) a tender, chaotic, pink-blanket-wrapped story of healing, queer joy, found family, and two boys falling for each other one breath, one panic attack, one sleepy red panda plush at a time.

🎼 when a quiet music education student is paired with the school's notorious bad boy for a year-long class project, he expects nothing but frustration. but as the two navigate their differences-one an introverted violinist, the other an extroverted dancer-their unlikely partnership begins to shift into something deeper. in a journey full of unexpected twists, flirtations, and self-discovery, both zhang hao and hanbin will have to face the truth of their feelings-and the music they create together may just be the harmony they've both been searching for. 🎧 best ranking: 🥇 #1 in haobin (3/3/2025) there IS smut in this story. (it's, like, one chapter).

a chatfic based book, but does include written chapters as well. "always," is a heartwarming and chaotic tale of love, friendship, and the unexpected twists that come with both. follow the journey of hao and hanbin, two university students whose bond deepens amid their group of 9 eccentric, close-knit friends. from playful bickering and emotional confessions to navigating life's uncertainties, this story explores what it means to be truly seen and loved. with humor, warmth, and a dash of chaos, "always" is a celebration of growth, connection, and the people who make the journey worthwhile. START || NOV 21, 2024 END || DEC 25, 2024 best rankings: 🥇 #2 in ricky 🥈 #7 in hao 🥉 #9 in hanyujin