Alex has endured too much at the hands of Scorpia. After being hospitalised with severe injuries, he returns to the Brecon Beacons for a while. But what will happen when he returns to the civilian world with a new identity and as a shell of the person he once was? *This story is pretty dark and deals with some heavy content.* I do not own the characters. That honour belongs to Anthony Horowitz- author of the Alex Rider series, but I'm sure you knew that already.

Alex Rider has always been an asset, an agent. Useful. Used. He left normal life behind him years ago. When he's kidnapped, tortured, and left for dead by contract killers, hired by someone he doesn't even know and can never find out, he finds himself thrown rapidly into a different course of life when his injuries take his leg and his life of espionage in one fell swoop. Useless to MI6, Alex finds himself on the scrapheap, with a permanent disability, a heap of compensation money and a bundle of trauma from a life he never thought he'd leave. And he's expected to go back to school and carry on with his life. What could possibly go wrong? ------ reached #1 in #alexrider!! Thank you so much :0 24/7: 100 reads 26/7: 150 reads 30/7: 200 reads 27/8: 500 reads Fuck knows lol I forgot to check: 1k reads (holy s h i t) ------

After his last mission Alex is deemed sloppy by Blunt, and is in need of training. He is sent back to Brecon Beacons, and much to his annoyance put into K-unit once more. Everything is going as well as it can be, until Alex's carefully constructed walls start to crack, and he is left defenceless against the horrors of his last mission. Can K-unit break through the lies Alex is feeding himself before he breaks, or will they be left to pick up the pieces when it all comes pouring out?

Alex goes to Brecons Beacons to live/train with SAS for the first time. Jack is dead and Alex has just been recovered from a Scorpia base where he was held captive and tortured for 3 months.

After taking out Scorpia for the last time, Alex Rider is sent to live at Brecon Beacons with his old unit, except Ben isn't there to help him... Alex discovers that life is a lot harder than it used to be, without Jack. Without anyone to help him stay sane, Alex wonders if he's slowly going insane, the thoughts of everything that's happened to him swirling in his mind. And where does K-Unit fit into this? And what about Tom, or Sabina? (Only slightly AU, I put in some torture while he was imprisoned) Update since someone asked: this isn't getting updated unless I reread Alex Rider. I haven't read/liked it for three years now, and even if I updated it, the writing style would be completely different. Sorry!

Following events that involved K-unit protecting him, a bunch of 17 years old at BB, and a mission involving a certain assassin, Alex found himself in front of a man he had never thought he would ever see again. Disclaimer: I do not own anything you recognise.