In a world where everything you feel can affect everyone and everything you do, feelings become both a gift and a curse. In a world where emotions can change everything, we still wish to hide them to stop hurting, or to stop causing pain. - Charlotte Austin How does it feel to feel? How does it feel to understand someone when you can't even understand yourself? How can I be normal, when from the start, I knew I wasn't? I just want to be normal... just once. - Engfa Waraha

Engfa Waraha (P'Fa) and Charlotte Austin (Char) met in a college dorm, Char hates the witty and sarcastic P'fa, but the dark cat eyed girl find it funny when she annoys her room mate. They can just argue all day about stupid random things but suddenly it lead to something unexpected, like butterflies in their stomachs and some sexual tension at some point.

Engfa, rising as a bright star under MGI as an artist, falls deeply in love with Charlotte-another MGI talent with a quiet soul and a hidden darkness. But Charlotte is still deeply wounded from a past trauma-something she's never spoken of, something that still controls how close she lets people in. Engfa's love is real, but it arrives at the worst possible time. And love, no matter how pure, can't heal someone who isn't ready. This is a story about timing, emotional survival, patience, heartbreak, and hope-wrapped in music, pain, and the bittersweet ache of falling for someone who doesn't feel safe to love you back. Yet.

Charlotte Austin wakes up inside a cliché romance novel... with a system. The male lead is a powerful CEO, and the female lead is Engfa Waraha-his former love who is about to return. Charlotte, however, is only the president's wife... the substitute for his true love. The president also has a six-year-old daughter from another woman. In the original story, the girl is neglected after her mother dies. Growing up alone, she slowly becomes a cruel villainess with a tragic ending. Charlotte's mission is to act as the evil stepmother and guide the girl toward darkness. But when she sees the quiet child, Charlotte refuses. Instead of turning her into a villain, she decides to protect her and change the story. She plans to stay away from the romance between the president and his true love... until she discovers Engfa Waraha's secret. Behind her elegant and fragile appearance hides a bold and dangerous woman. "Have you ever tried a woman?" In the end, Charlotte gains something unexpected: a wife, a daughter, and a completely rewritten fate. ✨

its spring break in 2005, Engfa Waraha and Charlotte Austin are both in Hawaii, its thier sophomore year of collage. charlotte, a bookish law student with a close knit group of friends knows who Engfa is, everyone does, the town hero Volleyball MVP even though they attended different schools. but when engfa, the photographer always in search of beauty lays eyes on charlotte for the first time, she will never want to look anywhere else again. they love on opposite sides of America, thier families cannot get on, can they make it work in a world before social media?

After eleven years together and seven years of marriage, Charlotte Austin believed her life was built on something permanent. Routine. Devotion. The quiet certainty of shared breath beneath the same roof. At thirty-one, the renowned photographer thought she understood how marriages survived. She believed stability came from endurance, from learning how to hold the fragile structure of a life together. She was wrong. When her wife, Engfa Waraha-a thirty-four-year-old trauma surgeon-begins to change, the shift is so subtle Charlotte cannot name it at first. There is no argument. No confession. No moment where something clearly breaks. Just distance. Conversations shorten. Glances become unreadable. The warmth that once defined their home recedes into a silence that grows heavier with every passing day. Engfa offers no explanation. And Charlotte, who has built a career capturing the delicate moment before something collapses, finds herself standing inside one she cannot understand. Because the most unsettling fractures are not the ones that shatter loudly. They are the ones that form quietly-between unfinished sentences, avoided questions, and the slow realization that the person beside you may already be somewhere else. As doubt settles into the spaces their love once occupied, Charlotte begins to question everything she thought she knew about loyalty, trust, and the quiet promises people make when they believe a life together is permanent. What she does not yet realize is that some truths in a marriage do not arrive as revelations. They exist long before anyone is willing to admit them. And sometimes the real damage is not what one person hides, but what the other refuses to see. ⚠️ Content Warning: This story contains GP/Intersex themes, a slow-burn storyline, heavy angst, and infidelity. Please feel free to skip it if you're not comfortable with these themes.

Engfa Waraha is a powerful, cold, and ruthless woman - the heir to an Asian mafia empire. She is given a mission: to kidnap Charlotte Austin, the daughter of an influential billionaire, as part of a carefully planned act of revenge. What Engfa doesn't expect is that Charlotte will be so defiant, proud... and irresistibly captivating. What begins as a mission soon turns into a forbidden passion, surrounded by deadly risks, betrayals, and painful choices. Author's Note: I apologize in advance for any mistakes in the translation. English is not my first language, but I did my best to share this story with love. Thank you for reading 🤍

Engfa Waraha has spent her life living for others - graceful, composed, and bound by invisible strings of duty and tradition. As the daughter of a deeply respected spiritual healer, Engfa has never been allowed to dream her own dreams. Then enters Charlotte Austin - storm-hearted, soul-bruised, and searching for something she can't name. When she's sent to stay with Engfa's family for healing, Charlotte doesn't expect to find light in a girl who hides her fire beneath silence. But love, once born, does not ask for permission. And the sky does not explain why it lets rain fall where it does. > Two souls. One divine connection. And a world too afraid to let them love. Torn between the weight of family, community, and their own truths, Engfa and Charlotte are forced to choose: Will they surrender to love? Or survive by burying it alive? A haunting tale of love, sacrifice, identity, and the soft rebellion of two girls who dared to feel more than they were allowed.