"HOW CAN YOU SEE INTO MY EYES LIKE OPEN DOORS" "DOOT DOOT DOOT DOOT DOOT DOOT" "DUNUNUNUNUN NNNN" "LEADING YOU DOWN INTO MY CORE WHERE I'VE BECOME SO NUMB" "WITHOUT A SOUL" "(WOAAAH)" "MY SPIRIT SLEEPING SOMEWHERE COLD UNTIL YOU FIND IT THERE AND LEAD IT BACK. HOME." "WAKE ME UP" "WAKE ME UP INSI-" "CAN'T WAKE UP" "WAKE ME UP INSID-" "SAVE MEEE" (This fic is actually, surprisingly, serious) collab with nxncybxy

TRIGGER WARNING. THIS STORY CONTAINS MENTIONS OF RAPE, SELF INJURY, DEATH AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. Can Dan save Phil? Phil is suicidal and Dan is the only one who's there for him. Can he alone save Phil?

after a certain website broadcasted dan howell's phone number to every visitor, he was bound to get a few texts. it was pure luck that phil lester was the one to text him. ❝ emo kid dan☽ : actually... philly✧ : ??? whats up emo boy ❞ minor swearing and some adult themes. triggers will be tagged. highest ranking : #73 in fanfiction, #26 in phanfiction

There's a war going on, and the Unlisted aren't winning against The New Generation of super soldier. Dan already had no one, but losing Phil, his closest friend, hurt more and over a month later he is still mourning. Flashbacks of memories don't make the pain lessen either. But maybe being a little careless in battle may turn out to be in his favour when a guardian angel with a gun shows up to save him.

"Back in 2009..." » short story based off the phan song «

Part 1 of the infamous series. Feelings appear. Sparks fly. Love rises. Problems occur. Please note: This story is now very old (7 years old in 2020) and I'd like to think my writing has improved since then! There are a bunch of cringey parts and bad writing in here, but enjoy and thanks for reading! :)

Dan's the new kid in school, expelled from his last for threatening a teacher. Dan's family hoping this will be a new start, don't know their son's biggest secret. Will Dan have the confidence to tell his father about the way he feels? Or will he continue to be the rebellious teenager he is? Phil is completely the opposite from Dan, never gets in trouble, quiet and doesn't have any friends. Trying to double depression and his grades, how will he deal with a new kid in his class? Will all his secrets be revealed? And will the bullying stop? Dan crosses Phil on his first day, and things don't start in the best way. Phil doesn't need help, but Dan is adamant he helps the boy through his years at college. What will happen when things turn upside-down for the both of them? Warnings: mentions of selfharm, bullying, mild swearing, sexual references and boy boy pairings. Not recommended for people under the age of 13. ©chloemitzu

Hey if you enjoyed a helping hand then you should read this fic, the rewritten version of the epic yet tragic love story (this version's better just fyi)

Dan Howell is invisible. That's all he knows how to be. Terrified of standing out, he is happy going unnoticed by his peers, finding company in only the old rock and roll songs on his iPod. But Dan's life is turned upside-down when a boy in his drama class takes him under his wing, introducing him to a world of excitement he never could have imagined. Through the good and the bad, Dan's new life thrills him and leaves him wondering ...what does it mean to truly be alive? pairs: Phan and KickTheStickz tw: language, sexual content, abuse, depression, death, suicide, medication, drugs, parents, alcohol ENTIRELY WRITTEN FROM DAN'S POV Note: This fic features no main character death, only mentions of death.

"I'm sorry..." (trigger warning)