"oh my god, help. i'm dead. her eyes. her eyes, dude." ----- obviously willow had heard of the famous billie eilish already, i mean, how could you not. but until then she'd never really cared who that eilish-girl was. scarred from her past, willow liked the new feeling of being appreciated and soon falls for the singer. although billie herself, has struggles to come clear with her own and new feelings for the other girl. are they supposed to be? ----- - strong language - brief mentions of suicide and depression - smut ----- achieved: 2 in #lesbian (april 2022) 4 in #gxg (july 2022) 2 in #billieeilish (august 2022) 1 in #wlw (august 2022) 1 in #concert (december 2022) 3 in #billie (march 2023) 1 in #finneas (april 2023)

A teenage girl battling with mental illnesses and disorders meets someone who shares similar battles to her own. Will she be able to open her heart up enough to let her help? Or will everything end in tragedy? Achievements #1 in suicide prevention #1 in suicide awareness

Billie rises fast inside an unforgiving industry, her life expanding until there is no space left to be private. Fame does not save her. Every feeling is louder, everything more visible, every moment lived under watch. She learns how to perform strength while carrying a darkness she refuses to name, terrified that if she lets it surface, it will consume her. The world keeps asking for more of her, even as she is quietly unraveling. Nat remains behind, rooted in a place that never opens for her. Stripped of choice and opportunity, she clings to her creativity as proof that she still exists. Her life is small, quiet, and heavy. She survives by disappearing inward, haunted by the sense that something essential has already passed her by. Around her neck hangs a key, a symbol of what she has always believed she was waiting for, though she no longer knows what door it belongs to, or if it will ever open. Years later, when their lives intersect again, love does not arrive as salvation. It arrives as tension. As longing. As fear. Their connection becomes both refuge and risk, forcing them to confront the parts of themselves they've learned to hide. Together, there is desire, guilt, shame, and the terrifying realization that loving someone does not mean you know how to stay alive for them. TRIGGER WARNING🔐 heavy sexual themes various mentions of: sh, suicide ideation, truama, depression, etc. Slow burn, friends to lovers, gxg.

Trigger warning for this book! I won't be putting a warning by every chapter. Also this is completely fictional

you just want what you can't have... tw for depression, eating disorders, drug use, violence + death cover art by @_radioheadstan

For as long Summer knew, she hated life. She hated the fact that she was still alive. Struggling with depression, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, eating disorder, and anxiety, the only thing keeping her alive is Billie Eilish. When Summer finally gets tickets to her concert, in her city, it changes everything. Can Billie keep summer alive or will summer come to the conclusion that the life she lives was never made for her? Read to find out! ⚠️This book does contain strong topics such as: self-harm Eating disorder mention of suicide and mention of abuse If any of these topics trigger you, you can skip it. I will put '⚠️' before any of these topics start and end⚠️. Enjoy!!!! Achievements: #1 eilish

Elliot Eneide, 21, moved to the United States from England three years ago after an incident with her mom. After two failed suicide attempts, she was determined to succeed the third time, but then 19 year old Billie Eilish stumbled into her life, turning her world upside down and making it hard to say goodbye.

I bite my lip as I contemplate whether I should ask the question that's been bouncing around my head all day. Taking a deep breath, I look up at her. "Are you embarrassed of me," I blurt out before I can change my mind. "Is that why you haven't told anybody about us?"

"Your favourite patients back," Billie O'Connell's home isn't a sanctuary - it's a war zone. With parents who scream more than they speak and a house that feels colder than the streets, Billie would do anything to escape. And she does - through a loophole that lands her in the hospital night after night, just for a few hours of peace and quiet. But loopholes don't stay hidden forever. Harley works on the paediatric mental health unit. She's seen kids like Billie before - but none of them have gotten under her skin quite like this. Billie is sharp, guarded, and heartbreakingly young. And when Harley breaks protocol to give her a lifeline - a phone number scribbled on a napkin - their connection deepens into something neither of them expected. As nights turn into weekends and hospital visits turn into sleepovers, Billie finds herself wanting things she never thought she'd have: a warm bath. A soft voice. A home. A hand to hold when the world gets too loud. And maybe... love. But love isn't simple - not when it's built from trauma and quiet, stolen moments. And Billie's world isn't done breaking yet. A tender, aching story of survival, found family, and the kind of love that heals from the inside out. Achieved: #1 in mentalhealthmatters

When seventeen-year-old Olivia takes a midnight walk in the downtown streets of la with the intention of taking her own life, she meets someone she never thought she'd ever see again. As Olivia struggles with multiple mental illnesses, Billie and her reconnect after several years. Billie doesn't just save her that night, she helps Liv begin the process of loving life again. Depression Anxiety Eating disorder Self-harm gxg Achieved 🥈 in #billieeilish 🥈 in #gxg 🥇 in #eilish