Eddie Diaz is straight; he's always been straight. One kiss with his best friend doesn't change that. Okay so maybe more than one kiss, maybe more than kissing. But it still doesn't mean anything. Eddie explains away their newfound sexual relationship as just that, sexual. It's purely physical, and if there aren't any feelings, then Eddie can still be straight. That is what he keeps telling himself. If they keep it casual, there isn't a problem. Buck has thought about kissing Eddie a million times over the past few years. He really wanted to be with him. Is he capable of being just casual? -or- Eddie Diaz grapples with internalized homophobia.

Buddie fic. Established relationship. Tragedy strikes the 118, and they are forced to bury one of their own. Eddie struggles to deal with the grief but fate brings him across the path of someone, suffering memory loss, who looks a little too much like Buck. Can his heart take the possibility of losing Buck twice?