sequel to "am i what you want" 3 years have passed. billie and alaia haven't spoken to eachother for years. are the feelings still there? alaia had yet to move on and continues to focus on her baby girl everyday until she rekindled with jonah. everything was perfect until a few months in he started getting abusive again. alaia had no other choice other than to move. but when billie and alaia run into eachother in public what will happen?

Billie Eilish walks into a tattoo shop at 1:12 a.m. She doesn't want ink. She doesn't want pictures. She just doesn't want to be alone. Nyx Calder works nights for a reason. Silence suits her. Pain doesn't scare her. And famous girls with haunted eyes aren't her problem-until Billie keeps coming back. What starts as late-night conversations and borrowed cigarettes turns into something heavier. Something dangerous. Billie is unraveling under the weight of her own mind-depression, insomnia, intrusive thoughts she never talks about. Nyx doesn't try to save her. She just stays. Hands steady. Voice low. Presence grounding. But intimacy gets complicated when one of you belongs to the world, and the other refuses to. Still Breathing Next to You is a slow-burn, WLW story about desire, mental illness, control, and choosing to stay alive when someone finally sees you in the dark.

when soleil takes a job working for a celebrity she already dislikes, she expects the worst. but billie isn't who she thought she was, and the line between professional and personal starts to blur. this is an enemies-to-lovers story about tension, timing, and what happens in between. will they cross the line?

Second Book! If you haven't already, go check out "Once In A Lifetime Chance: A Billie Eilish Story" :) Discontinued for the time being. (Only chapters 1-20 are currently up-save this book to a reading list if you don't mind waiting a VERY long time)

A billie eilish fanfic G!p TW: age gap/intersex/minor/smut

Raven Hale wasn't looking for trouble- but trouble found her in the form of Billie O'Connell. A street racer with red roots, cold eyes, and a reputation as dangerous as the cars she builds, Billie is the last girl Raven should get close to. Especially when Raven is barely holding her own life together. But when Raven's brother gets pulled into Billie's world of midnight races and whispered secrets, Raven is forced to face the one girl who makes her feel something she's never felt before- seen. Wanted. Soft. Billie has rules: Don't get attached. Don't let anyone in. Don't fall for the girl with sad eyes and soft hands. Too late. As engines roar through neon nights, Raven and Billie collide in a slow burn of secrets, jealousy, and a tenderness neither of them knows how to handle. They're both dangerous. Both broken. Both trying not to fall. But some crashes are impossible to avoid.

Tessa Banks takes a dream job photographing Billie Eilish on tour, expecting nothing more than long days, new cities, and the rush of capturing a superstar in her element. She doesn't expect the quiet gravity between them - the way Billie's softness settles into her, the way Tessa makes Billie laugh again, or how a single touch can feel like a secret only they understand. But the closer they grow, the harder everything becomes to hide. And when Tessa briefly steps away from tour to make sure her mom is okay, Billie screws up - badly - breaking the trust Tessa had slowly, carefully given her. Now, with feelings tangled and boundaries already crossed in ways Tessa never allowed with anyone else... will she forgive Billie after letting herself blur the line between professional and personal for her? Ongoing. (The whole story is done and written, I'm just releasing each part like, every other day) Yes this story has smut.🙂

Billie, a tattoo artist with a sharp edge, and Aaliyah, a resilient single mother navigating life while protecting her 3-year-old son, from his father. Billie, born into privilege but drawn to the gritty streets, keeps her circle tight and trusts no one outside of her crew. Aaliyah, shaped by her past and determined to shield her son, crosses paths with Billie when their worlds collide. What begins as a clash of personalities grows into an unexpected connection, as Billie's tough exterior softens under Aaliyah's strength, and Aaliyah learns to let her guard down. Together, they face the dangers of her Ex's interference, the crews demands, and the challenges of building trust in a world filled with shadows and scars. SEQUAL 'GRASP' OUT NOW!

After a sold-out Billie Eilish concert in Berlin, Eliza just wants to get home, order takeout, and crash. But when her car won't start behind the venue, she finds herself face-to-face with the last person she ever expected: Billie Eilish herself. What begins as a chance encounter with jumper cables turns into an all-night text exchange full of banter, confessions, and unexpected sparks. By morning, Eliza has Billie's number in her phone, a coffee date on her calendar, and a feeling she hasn't had in years - the dizzy rush of possibility. Set against rainy Berlin streets, cozy cafés, and the contrast between celebrity chaos and ordinary life, this slow-burn, emotionally rich romance follows two women learning to navigate fame, fear, and the thrill of real connection. #1 billieeilishsmut #1 billie

When I met her, I fell in love with her smile. With her laugh, which she gave so free and loud, or soft and breathy in my ear. I'd fallen in love with her hands as they traced the air in front of my favorite paintings. With her fingertips as they braided her soft black hair. I'd fallen in love with her icy blue eyes, the dimple in her cheek, the smell of her spicy sweet perfume at the hollow of her throat, poisonous to me. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lucy Stewart is a textile artist in love with art of all kinds, but especially those that play on dark emotions. While sitting in a museum one evening, one of her very favorite such artists steps into her life. Together, they will create an art form neither of them have yet to experience alone... **New parts published on Wednesdays and Saturday's** CONTAINS: graphic consensual sex, language, kink Trigger warnings will be listed at the top of each chapter (there won't be many)