After John is murdered, Paul has to learn to live without him, all while trying to sort through the memories of the relationship they had during their time with the Beatles.

A collection of tidbits that are hoarding up space in my mind. Sometimes when I write I have many ideas I can't use in my actual stories so here's where I'll post scenes that I can't resist writing but have no place for. Angsty, smut, funny, romantic, and just plain silly. Anything that's on my mind really but I'll make it worth reading. May range up to a NC-17 rating.

Paul never thought he could ever fall in love with another man, let alone his best friend. John on the other hand, couldn't believe it when he realized his feelings for a certain doe-eyed boy. Though, secret relationships are hard, and sometimes the wrong people find out. Sometimes, a partner might be disloyal. A relationship like this could change the world. **note,, this is so old. Like four years old. It's trash in my eyes and I don't even have the will to revise it. Enjoy at your own risk, but I'm publishing much better fanfiction with 4 more years of experience under my belt on ao3 under the same jlawad name.

mel·an·cho·li·a ˌmelənˈkōlēə/ noun: melancholia deep sadness or gloom; melancholy. a mental condition marked by persistent depression and ill-founded fears.

They say that all wounds heal with time, but Charlie Ward is having trouble believing it. Charlie moved to Liverpool in hopes of starting a new life, but dark secrets from her past continue to haunt her. While trying to make a positive change, she meets troublemaker John Lennon, a member of a new band called The Beatles. He's a boy with lots of charm and a very bad reputation. Despite warnings from friends, neighbors, even John's band mates, their complicated relationship threatens to lead Charlie back to her old ways of drugs and danger. Set in 1963 Liverpool.

The year 1990. It's been ten years since johns 'death' what happens when a female mets him on the internet and the two become friends?love? Or will the baggage she has be her end? My original story that had to be deleted on my other account because it was going haywire.

A fanfic about John Lennon wandering in a world of Misery and sadness...