Was it ever me... or just him?

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞?

"I like you onyx! I LIKE YOU A LOT!" I say tearing up. His mouth drops but no words come out. "Every moment wit you feels euphoric onyx. I don't wanna hide being wit you or just being yo baby mom, I want to be the girl you can love with no fears. I wanna be your girlfriend or your future wife!" I say standing up facing away from him. "I- I really do like you Lani more than you'll ever know it's just I'm not good for you, i don't wanna break your heart because I can't love correctly" I feel him grab my arm and turn me around, his face full of sadness and pain. "I do have feelings for you, I do wanna love again but I can't" he says and a tear falls down his face breaking my heart. "Just try with me, we can take it day by day" I flash him a small smile. "You promise?" He asks and I nod holding his hand. "I promise, I got your back Jabari. always" I say and he starts to tear up for the first time ever and it made me cry too. I pull him into a hug wrapping my arms around his neck as he wraps his hands around my waist leaving some room for my baby bump so that I could feel comfortable. #1 Black love book #1 Atlanta book 1/28/2025 - 2/6/2025 #1 babymama book 2/28/2025 - 3/15/2025 #2 twinbabies book #5 babydaddy book

"I got one big ass album for you, It got over 900 pictures of you." He confessed making her jaw drop. "Do you even be picking out the best pictures and delete the rest of the ugly ones??" She looked at him in shock. "Fuck no, I keep every picture of you." He said while opening the house door and let her walk in first. "You're so crazy inlove, it's okay though me too." She smiled softly at him. "I thought you only liked me a lil bit." He locked the doors and followed her to the bedroom. "I changed my mind. I can do that." She flipped her hair over her shoulder and walked in the bedroom. "Type shit." He laughed and shook his head at her. Messiah was so deeply in love with Juani, nobody could tell him anything about her. He loved her with all his heart and felt like she was the reason he had smiled so much in what felt like forever. 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝- March 20, 2024 𝐏𝐮𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝- March 24, 2024 𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝-June 16, 2024 @𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒✰

"Tell me you don't feel it. Tell me I'm imagining this, and I'll never bring it up again." He looked at her for a long moment, and she could see him fighting himself. "I can't tell you that," he said finally. "Why not?" "Because it would be a lie." -- Naomi "Nay" Shields is a 24-year-old lifestyle YouTuber with over a million followers, known for her beauty, travel vlogs, and "perfect" relationship with longtime boyfriend Messiah "Si" Banks. On camera, they're couple goals. Off camera, she's just surviving him. Messiah is a flashy, manipulative drug dealer in Atlanta-respected in the streets, but emotionally abusive behind closed doors. After cheating multiple times, he traps Nay further with a viral public proposal in Tulum. Now, she feels stuck-scared to leave the brand they built and scared of him. But everything shifts when Messiah's older half-brother, Zyair "Zy" Banks, returns home from a four-year federal bid. He's the opposite of Messiah-quiet, gritty, observant. And he sees right through Nay's pain. When Messiah gets shot in a setup and ends up bedridden, Zy moves in to "keep things in order." As tension brews and the house grows quiet, stolen glances turn into whispers... into touches... into something neither of them planned. What happens when love grows in the shadow of abuse? When the one man who sees you is the one you should never want? And what happens when Messiah finds out? 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝- 06.28.25 𝐏𝐮𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝- 07.09.25 𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝- 08.20.25

When 17-year-old Ja'Nari moves to a new city, the last thing she expects is to get caught in the middle of two dangerously charming boys-Ma'Kylan, the mysterious loner with a quiet rage behind his eyes, and My'Kyro, the smooth-talking heartbreaker with a smile that hides way too much. What starts as innocent attention turns into something deeper, something intense. Both boys fall for her-fast. And Ja'Nari? She starts to lose herself in the thrill, the attention, and the promises they whisper when no one's around. But love like that don't come without consequences. Secrets get buried. Lines get crossed. And when things spiral, one truth becomes clear- if they can't have her, no one can.

"𝐈 𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 , 𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐘"

"𝐈𝐭𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐮𝐬 , 𝐰𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫."

"How"

"Gotta be with somebody who see the forever in you cause if the bond real y'all gone get over everything."