This book is full of poems I've written from the heart. I've always wanted to share them-not just to express myself, but to see if others out there might relate. These pieces mean a lot to me, and putting them out into the world wasn't easy. Out of respect for the time, emotion, and effort I poured into this, I kindly ask that no one copies or steals my work. If you do, I will take action to copyright and protect what's mine. I worked hard on these poems, and I hope you'll respect that. Thank you for reading and understanding. I believe a lot of people will relate to what's written here. The beautiful cover art was created by the talented Nona Limmen. You can find more of her haunting, magical work on Instagram: 🌙 @nonalimmen For questions, collaborations, or to connect, feel free to reach out to me on Discord. Message me for server info, add requests, or just to talk. lovelosto.o These poems come straight from the heart. Some are long, but I promise they're worth the read. I put a lot of emotion into them, even though I'll admit... I got really lazy halfway through 😭. There were supposed to be more pages, but I couldn't keep writing anymore at the time. Every poem in here is raw. Full of detail. You'll find sadness, love, calmness, peace, rage, emptiness, loneliness-and maybe even a little hope i barely edit anything just give me a chance 😭

Camilo Carter is The Doctor of East Hadena, one of the deadliest serial killers the city has ever seen. He's excellent at what he does, with no signs of getting caught any time soon. He thinks he has it all figured out, sees himself as almost bulletproof. He's never slipped up, never come remotely close. Camilo is untouchable. That is, until the really hot lead investigator of his case moves in across the hall. ~ "Perfect," he tells me, tone low. My heart practically stops beating in my chest. "I meant you're perfect." Decari doesn't know. He has no idea how untrue that is, how far off. He doesn't know, and he can't know. He can't ever fucking find out! He just can't, and I'm terrified that if I let this continue any longer... I'll get too comfortable. Too secure. I can never allow myself to doubt his loyalty to the law. If I'm to give in, I need to promise myself that. I take a step forward, and we're so close like this that I can feel the heat of his body. I finally move my gaze up to his eyes, which look a lot darker like this. He is entirely focused on me, and I don't think he even realizes he does it, but his hand drops from my face and finds its way to my hip a moment later. The world seems to disappear as I look into his eyes, deciding to warn him one last time. "You'll change your mind." ~ [WARNINNGS: definitely blood and gore etc since the book is about a serial killer, there will also be heavy topics like abuse and sexual assault, not graphic. also smut of course]