"I only ever feel alive with her weight in my arms and she only ever breathes when drugs fill her veins." For as long as she can remember, Raven has only ever belonged to herself. Neglectful parents, fake friends and many bullies. To deal with the fact that pain never seems to fade away, she found comfort in all sorts of drugs and fell deeply into it really quickly. They made her feel like she was never alone. After all, they're the only things that can quiet down her mind and destroy her inner wounds. When a blue haired girl walks into her life, Raven feels like a shadow. Billie is everything she isn't: stable, popular, smart and most of all, happy. Raven is a nightmare and Billie is absolutely perfect. Raven tries to ignore her feelings for Billie, pushing her away again and again. Lies, violence, disappearances... She always runs back to drugs to cope with the danger of falling for someone. Drugs can't betray her, but people can always leave. But Billie never leaves. She falls hard for Raven as her light begins to dim while she gets pulled into Raven's darkness. Loving Raven isn't gentle. It's destructive and addictive. Despite the danger, Billie can't leave, deeply obsessed. Raven chases numbness. Billie chases the despair of loving her. When Raven finally stops running away, it might be too late.

Juline's job is simple on paper. keep the schedule tight, the rumors quiet, and Billie Eilish exactly where she needs to be. But nothing about this tour is simple. Juline Moreau is an French manager. Cool, flawless, unshakable. At least, that's what she wants everyone to believe. But Billie? She's unpredictable. Magnetic. Impossible to keep in line. Between sold-out shows, relentless fans, and sleepless nights in unfamiliar cities, Juline starts to realize that holding everything together might be harder than she thought. Because sometimes the hardest part of the job isn't the world watching- it's what happens when no one else is looking. --- ⚠️ This story includes: smut, mental health issues and maybe violence

Avril doesn't speak. Not since the world gave her every reason to stay silent. But then came Billie-loud, reckless, and impossible to ignore. She doesn't flinch at Avril's silence. She breaks through it. As Billie pulls her into a world of chaos and connection, one question lingers: Can Billie uncover the truth behind Avril's silence-or will her own dangerous life tear them both apart? - ❤️ - Billie is being very toxic in this fan fiction - please remember, she's the sweetest in real life. This is just a story! ⚠️ Trigger warning ⚠️ This story contains: Smut, s3xual abuse, mention of SH, violence