Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.

"Please stop! You're hurting me!" "Don't fight me, Luke, it'll just make it worse." Or in which Luke is being abused by a boy named Ryan and he feels helpless to do anything about it out of fear. He's sworn to silence but can Ashton save him? // tw for abuse, rape, self-harm, attempted suicide // {Fully Edited as of 18th Nov 2017 // 28 Published Parts} (Highest rank - #177 Fanfiction, #316 Teen Fiction) (3rd place in Up and Coming - Lashton Awards) cover template © lottesgraphics pictures © cHae

Where two boys meet on Tumblr and suggest music to each other without knowing that they go to the same school. warnings: swearing, self-harm, depression, bullying.

"Why Can't all the pain just stop? Why cant the world just stop hating, life is tough of a place for someone like me. People like me don't ever get what they deserve. No matter what, the pain will never stop, but soon enough when i take my last breath all the pain will wash away, and all my scars can become beautiful."

Life gets better? Try telling that to Ashton Irwin, who's life has only been shit. He doesn't believe in anything or himself anymore, and he's nearing his breaking point. Luke Hemmings is the new kid, and he immediately becomes well known; due to his charming looks and personality. But when he sees the hazel eyed boy sitting alone at lunch, he finds himself making it his goal to make Ashton happy again. Will he fix him before it's too late? Or will Ashton slip right through his fingertips? WARNING: foul language, self harm, suicidal actions/thoughts, and eating disorders.

this book DOES include the following: sex cutting depression suicide bullying homophobia ©runitsashton

5 Seconds of Summer & One Direction -crossover- Multiple Ships. warnings: triggering. anorexia, self-harm, depression, bullying, swearing. Disclaimer: I do not own anyone in this story. ~ "Want an oreo?" Who knew one sentence could change someone's life so much?

"Fat fat fat," Luke clawed at his body. "All I am, is fat." - Luke Hemmings is ugly. Luke Hemmings is fat. Luke Hemmings likes to puke. Luke Hemmings despised eating. Luke Hemmings is every negative comment made about him. Luke Hemmings is gay. Luke Hemmings is pretending. Luke Hemmings is damaged goods. Ashton Irwin is hot. Ashton Irwin is skinny. Ashton Irwin loves to eat. Ashton Irwin is smart. Ashton Irwin is amazing. Ashton Irwin is everything Luke needs. Ashton Irwin is gay. Ashton Irwin is pretending. Ashton Irwin is noticing. Ashton Irwin is falling in love.

complete ☑️ Ashton Irwin. Also known as the annoying shy boy with never ending hiccups. Most people dislike him because he can never keep quiet. However, Luke thinks that Ashton is unique and finds the constant hiccuping cute. © Copyright 2014 sincerelylashton All Rights Reserved. [ ranking : #175 in lukehemmings ]