(Originally called Why Do I Miss You So?) Dimitri accepted Tasha's offer to live with her, leaving Rose behind. After losing both Mason and Dimirti, Rose loses herself too, becoming a shell of her former self. But what happens when Dimitri returns? He's not back for her, but she still has to see him every day. And some wounds just don't heal with time.

Two teenage serial killers try not to arouse suspicion from the police and their families.

My mom ‘loved’ my dad, but she left him. My mom ‘loved’ me, but she abandoned me. Dimitri ‘loved’ me, but he left me. Christian’s parents loved him, but they became soulless monsters and tried to turn him into the same. Lissa ‘loved’ me but she threw me away. And I thought some small part of Adrian ‘loved’ me, until the day he hit me. Someone once said that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I have to say that I disagree. Because I learned the hard way that LOVE is a four letter LIE. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* It has been 4 years since LS. Dimitri and Rose have broken up and Dimitri went to Russia while rose was sent out to Montana to teach at St. Vladimir. But not all is as it seems. When Rose is sent to retrieve Dimitri from Baia, he notices that she has changed. Her fiery temper is gone, she no longer laughs or has snarky comments. She flinches when he moves too quickly. Lissa has all but abandoned Rose due to spiritual darkness. Christian won’t go against Lissa. What happened to Rose?

Dhampirs have always protected the Moroi from the Strigoi. That's how it was, and thats how it always will be. It's the life that Ellysa has always known. Now it's her turn to protect a Moroi. That is, if they want her. A rebel in school, she was the one not just starting fights, but also finishing them. She idolized Rose Hathaway and always wanted to be like her in middle school, and now's her chance. They come first. The rule that every dhampir guardian knows. Now she just needs to finda a Moroi to hire her. As long as Adrian Ivashkov doesn't get in her way. (Currently on hold. I'll begin posting chapters soon.)

Rose has two options? Kill Dimitri or find a way to bring him back? After getting a letter from Dimitri, threatening the life of the Academy and her friends. Rose calls the only person who can make her disappear for awhile. Leaving her life behind again, she goes on a mission to discover the location of the spirit user who saved a Strigoi and saves Dimitri from eternity in hell. Or Rose has to face the love of her life, once in for all even for the last time. Past consequences and hidden foes coming in every direction. Can Rose save Dimitri before the clock runs out? Non;Edited[ 100,000+ Words]🧿