The thing about grief is that it's different for everyone who experiences it. Some people have random bursts of anger, some feel unbearable sadness, and some feel empty. Jean never thought he'd have to figure out how grief showed in him, but even the unexpected can happen. Jean navigates his grief a bit differently than others. Through his eulogy, Jean relives his college life, remembering from the moment he met her, arguing with an RA, to the moment he heard her voice for the last time, and all the small moments in between. At the time, he never knew how much those memories would mean to him or how much he would cling to them, but as his grief settled, they were the only thing that grounded him.

when jean kirstein falls in love, before falling apart 𝗃𝖾𝖺𝗇 𝗄𝗂𝗋𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗂𝗇 𝗑 𝖿𝖾𝗆!𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗍𝗍𝖺𝖼𝗄 𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗂𝗍𝖺𝗇 𝖺𝗎 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗍𝖾𝖽: 𝖺𝗎𝗀𝗎𝗌𝗍 2023 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗌𝗁𝖾𝖽: 𝗈𝖼𝗍𝗈𝖻𝖾𝗋 2023 🥇𝗂𝗇 #𝗃𝖾𝖺𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗋𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗂𝗇: 01/12/2023 🥇𝗂𝗇 #𝗃𝖾𝖺𝗇𝗑𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋: 31/01/2024 + 01/12/2024 🥇𝗂𝗇 #𝗃𝖾𝖺𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗋𝗌𝖼𝗁𝗍𝖾𝗂𝗇: 31/12/2024 ©𝗁𝖺𝗃𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗂𝗌𝖺𝗒𝖺𝗆𝖺

Jean Kirstein, a soldier of the royal guard of the kingdom Eldia is granted a promotion. Although he'd normally be thrilled, his new job requires watching over and protecting the princess who has a terrible habit of doing exactly what she's not supposed to. reader discretion advised. all characters 18+, no titan powers, set in fantasy world. smut. content for 18+. talk about death and killing. violent/graphic scenes. cover art creds: gundo_49 on twitter!!

𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐊𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐨 𝐁𝐨𝐝𝐭. 𝐎𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐞𝐥𝐝. 𝐈𝐧 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬. 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥𝐬. 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝. 𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 - 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐨 𝐞𝐟𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝. After a difficult first year at Central Sina University, Y/N transfers to the University of Paradis in search of something better. She moves in with Sasha a warm and endlessly friendly roommate who quickly pulls her into a tight knit group of friends living just across the hall. For what feels like the first time in a long while, things start to feel easy.... promising. Then Marco Bodt notices her. Golden boy. Soccer captain. Future doctor. Everything Jean isn't. Jean, meanwhile, has his life seemingly figured out. He's retaking the year, living in a frat house with his closest friends, winning games, and absolutely never short of attention. He tells himself he doesn't care - that Marco has always had it easier in every way. But everything shifts when Jean learns over the summer that his father intends to marry Marco's mother, binding them as step-brothers. However, this time Jean isn't willing to come second. Not when it comes to Y/N. The one thing he's willing to fight his best friend and soon to be step brother over.

𓊈 𝙵𝚘𝚘𝚝𝚋𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚛 𝙹𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝙺𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚒𝚗 𝚇 𝙵𝚒𝚐𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚂𝚔𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛⋆. ୨୧˚⋆ 𓊉 ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★ 𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑→In which you leave Marley in the middle of sophomore year, running from a past you refuse to name and a mother you're desperate to forget. Paradis University is meant to be a clean slate, a place where you can pretend and no one knows your scars. That plan falls apart the moment you meet Jean Kirstein. The cocky, infuriating captain of the football team and your friend's worst influence. He manages to get under your skin like no one else, and you swear you'll never fall for someone like him. You hate him. He hates you. Or at least that's what you tell yourself, But between heated arguments there's the unexpected moments of softness, the feelings you can't outrun, until stolen glances turn into late nights, and slowly love finds you where you least expect it. ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★ ⚠︎ Cautions→ Violence, blood, traumas, explicit sexual content, smoking, suicidal thoughts, self harm, mention of abuse and SA, minor characters death etc.

College AU Art student Jean x Dance student fem reader A dancer who doesn't trust men and a hopeless romantic art student. How will this unlikely pairing fair amidst an environment of exams, parties, drugs and drama. A story in which Jean tries his hardest to win over a girl that can't be won.

you wanted to run away from it. so you did. you transferred to St. Peter's Trost University. 2 hours away from home. 2 hours away from memories that keep you wake at night. 2 hours away from when you last saw your sister. you randomly moved into an apartment and ran into your old best friend from elementary school, sasha braus. who ended up having a roommate who was the complete opposite of the ray of sunshine. you meet more than just her. you meet the entire friend group and a lucky boy who you thought was the one for you. he sweet. kind. pretty to look at. what was there to complain about but what happens when your eyes wander a little from the pretty view into the darkness that sees no end? jean kirstein. what you didn't know that he wasn't just all darkness and a complete asshole to his friends. he was the person you never thought you needed. he became someone you knew was irreplaceable. ---- I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE AOT CHARACTERS. enjoy:) awards: #2 sashabraus- 4/18/26 #2 jeanxreader- 4/25/26 #3 connie - 5/16/26

College is hard. Living two doors down from Jean Kirstein? Even harder. New to Stohess University, you're just trying to survive dorm life, avoid emotional attachment, and maybe pass psych class. But when your path collides with the university's most irritatingly attractive frat boy, you find yourself dragged into a world of stolen hoodies, late-night arguments, and group chats from hell. He's loud, cocky, and so not your type. So why does he keep ending up in your bed? Psych class with Reiner, being besties with Sasha and Connie and having Hitch and Annie as your roomies is NOT for the weak, not to mention Jean Kirstein in the mix of it all. A chaotic, messy, and (unfortunately) romantic Jean x Reader college AU featuring Eren's emotional breakdowns, love triangles, Hitch's savage commentary, and the most toxic group chat on campus. This is an ongoing piece and I will update it regularly. I feel like there is a gap in the market for genuinely decent Jean fanfics so I wrote this, just for fun.

Going to a university far from home where no one knows you and instantly making friends with the elite seemed like a good idea at the time. After finding yourself in drama and bad situations and of course, catching the eye of the infamous playboy eren jaeger, things begin to take a turn for the worst. ❧ set in college, all characters 18+, no titan powers, set in normal world. smut. content for 18+. talk about drugs and sex. talk of SA/ SA action. drug use warning. talk of stress eating disorder. talk of suicide and suicidal action. talk about death and killing. DV/violence scenes. reader discretion is advised. enjoy. cover art credit to: lunarells !! please do not ask to translate/repost my work!!

began 06.27.2024 | © 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 . . . sophomore year of college holds things you never thought the universe would choose you to experience. you find yourself strolling this long and winding road without the one person who was supposed to guide you through everything, but with your chosen family-- a group of loud-mouthed friends who wouldn't dare let you lose yourself again. Though, a new-found face with a troubled past has made his way into your life, and your friend group, and the constant weight of heavy baggage on his shoulders makes him hard to get to-- all he has to do is warm up to the idea of being loved. revised/continuing through 2026. 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 modern college au set at a real school, drinking and use of drugs/drug abuse, explicit depictions of addiction, explicit sexual content including a theme of sexual ABUSE, themes and references to self-harm, death, suicide, allusions to hallucinations and schizophrenia canon/non-canon characterization. while in no way am I trying to glorify these things, a lot of the experiences that I have put into this book I have experienced myself-- and want to bring them to light. when i put warnings, please, for the love of god, take them seriously. proceed with caution as you read, because this story is not for the faint of heart.