with my body fully armed, I still feel safest in your arms.

Everyone says high school is hell. For Riley, it started with a girl named Billie. When Riley is assigned to help the new girl at school, she doesn't expect much. Billie is quiet, strange, always scribbling in that journal she won't let anyone touch. But something about her-her sharp wit, her soft voice, her secrets-draws Riley in. As they spend time together on a class project, Riley starts to uncover the shadows Billie hides behind her silence. Nightmares. Disappearances. Cold, dead stares. Still, Riley can't walk away-not when Billie starts to trust her. Not when Riley starts to care more than she should. But everything unravels when a terrifying event exposes the truth about Billie's mental health. As reality blurs and rumors burn through the halls of their school, Riley is left with one question: If she keeps loving Billie through all of it-will she survive it herself? ••• • #2 in comeoutandplay on 8.28.25

I watched them all stare up at me. I felt the cold dark air swirl around me and heard muffled screams. Before everything went black. I had a dream... I got Everything I Wanted... Billie is suffering from depression and doesn't know how much longer she can last. But maybe that will change once she falls for a girl named ava monroe. BILLIE EILISH FANFICTION ⚠️TW⚠️ - depression - self harm - suicide - death - sexual content maybe - MATURE

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"a whole ass angel," i declared. "the world does not deserve you, billie eilish." she giggled. "you don't think so?" i turned so that i was laying on my back now. i made grabby hands for her, then pulled her so that she was laying on top of me. i cupped her cheeks softly after she propped herself up a bit. "i know so. you're too good for this world; too pure." i murmured as i softly rubbed my thumb against her cheekbone. "yeah?" "yeah," i confirmed with a nod. "i'm so deadass right now. you are- you're an angel in my eyes." ============================== billie eilish gets bored of the same old 'perfect' life in heaven. she always watches the people on earth. she was envy of them. so one day, she leaves heaven to go see what earth is really like. ============================== lowercase intended ============================== disclaimer: this story is not meant to offend anybody of any religion. it's just for fun. ============================== started: 5/25/2021 ended: 6/21/2021 ============================== achieved: 🏅 #5 in #billieeilish 5/30/2021

"Your favourite patients back," Billie O'Connell's home isn't a sanctuary - it's a war zone. With parents who scream more than they speak and a house that feels colder than the streets, Billie would do anything to escape. And she does - through a loophole that lands her in the hospital night after night, just for a few hours of peace and quiet. But loopholes don't stay hidden forever. Harley works on the paediatric mental health unit. She's seen kids like Billie before - but none of them have gotten under her skin quite like this. Billie is sharp, guarded, and heartbreakingly young. And when Harley breaks protocol to give her a lifeline - a phone number scribbled on a napkin - their connection deepens into something neither of them expected. As nights turn into weekends and hospital visits turn into sleepovers, Billie finds herself wanting things she never thought she'd have: a warm bath. A soft voice. A home. A hand to hold when the world gets too loud. And maybe... love. But love isn't simple - not when it's built from trauma and quiet, stolen moments. And Billie's world isn't done breaking yet. A tender, aching story of survival, found family, and the kind of love that heals from the inside out. Achieved: #1 in mentalhealthmatters

After a near-fatal suicide attempt, seventeen-year-old Billie finds herself under the constant watch of Claire-a calm, enigmatic caregiver her mother has hired to ensure she stays alive. Strangers in a Berlin hotel room, Billie resents the intrusion, while Claire remains distant, professional, and quietly observant. But as the days blur into nights, something begins to shift. Billie softens, opens up-and starts to feel something she never expected. Achieved: #3 in therapist