The story of Astrea Janica Solaris, a writer who has been through ups and downs, and how she got through her struggles. Note: This story contains sensitive content that is not suitable for very young audiences. It talks about mental health and suicide. Read at your own risk.

Tumili silang lahat nang sabay sabay naming nakita sa bulletin board ang pangalan ko. Samantalang unti-unti namang napawo ang ngiti ko habang tinitingnan ang listahan ng mga may pinakamalaking QPI. I was sure I did so well. It isn't a question if I made the list or not because I know I will always make it. Kaya nga nakangiti na ako kanina pa dahil siguradong sigurado ako. Kaso ngayon...nawalan na nang tuluyan ang ngiti ko. Because I know that I do not hold the top spot of the dean's list, and to me...this is the worst.

Kailan mo nalaman na kaya mo palang mabuhay para sa lahat, maliban sa sarili mo? Ysabelle Serene Herera never had the luxury of falling apart. Nung namatay ang tatay niya, wala siyang oras para umiyak dahil may bayarin, may kakailanganin, at may aasahan sa kanya. Kaya naging ganun na lang siya, yung taong laging nandoon, yung taong hindi pwedeng sumuko. At nung sinaktan siya ng taong pinakamatiwalaan niya, hindi rin niya binigyan ng oras ang nararamdaman niya. She simply left. Quietly, without looking back, because sometimes the smartest thing you can do is stop waiting for things to get worse. The life she chose was never kind to her but she stayed anyway. She worked, she survived, and slowly she learned how to breathe again. She built a life that was finally, completely hers. Okay na siya and this time, she actually meant it. Then he came along. Cassian Drevian De Leoncourt. And Ysa, who had spent her whole life paying bills, swallowing pain, and holding everyone else together, finally met someone who looked at her like she was the one who needed to be held. She had spent so long searching for a place that felt like peace. But what if he was either her serenity, or the most beautiful chaos she would ever survive?