A night I don't remember taught me what survival actually looks like. This is the story of how a pouch of chewing tobacco, two cops, and a blackout became the first step toward sobriety. - From my ongoing collection, "Barbed Wire Psalms". (Part 1 of 8)

❀𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐎𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐓𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐲❀ | *𝐔𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆!* "𝐘𝐨𝐮 guys left me remember?! I was all alone because of you guys, so don't think you guys can just come back into my life and I'll be ok with!" "𝐖𝐞 know we made a mistake, probably the biggest mistake of our lives but we're here to fix it so please let us Esme" -------------------------- 𝐄𝐬𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐲 𝐉𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐓𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐬, an 8 year old who is abandoned by all four of her older brother after her fathers death and was left with her now alcoholic mother. 8 years later Esmeray hated anything to do with her brothers or her past. Now she's trying her best to raise her 3 year old brother since her mom is to busy getting wasted. She does everything she can for her little brother even if it means having to do illegal street racing with her friends to earn money . What happens when all four of her brothers want to come and 𝐀𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬? read to find out. Started:𝐉𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐲 17𝐭𝐡 - Ended: 𝐀𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐬𝐭 31𝐬𝐭. Best rankings; #1 older sister #2 abandoned #2 street racing #3 smoking #5 family problems #7 alcoholism #16 bad bitch #24 language