The girl I grew up to know is not who I am today, who I am today is not who I see or envision to be in future, I look at myself now and see that I am the now the present. In truth, apparent awakening cannot occur in anyone's presence but it can only occur in anyone's absence. I couldn't have "experience" what I'm truly called for from "afar" because there is no such thing as a distance for Oneness. There is no one "over here" to gain knowledge of something "over there." My life isn't about finding myself, it's about discovering what I'm created you to be. i'm THE PAST ...THE FUTURE ...THE PRESENT ...THE AWAKEN AUGURY