"Grace." He demands. "I can't," I say shakily, leaning my head back and looking up at the shy stars. "Why not?" "It's not that I don't want to," I start, looking back at him to catch him already looking at me. "I can't afford it, Sam." "Then me and my m-" He starts. "Sam!" I interject. "No. I can fix this on my own. I don't need help from anyone but myself, this is my problem. Not a nurse's, not my dad's, not your mom's, not yours." "Grace, I found out, so yes! Yes, it's my goddamn problem. And you can't fix something like this by yourself!" "Yes, you can! I've read about people who have self recovered. And honestly, it seems better than being put in a psych ward!" I'm nearly yelling now. Sam scoffs, his eyes narrowing at me. "Yeah? Like who?" "Like celebrities t-" "Celebrities! You're not famous, Grace! You're normal! You're... You're just you!" I narrow my eyes at him. "Just me?"

Background: I have an older brother named Chris, and a younger sister named Reagan. My parents picked our names last minute because they didn't really care about what they were going to name us. My family lives in a huge house in Texas. My dad is a doctor and my mom is a lawyer so our family is pretty much rich. My parents rarely pay attention to any of us because they never wanted us. They give us money every month so that we won't have to bother them when we need money for something. I could probably be happy about that if my life was actually good and not a living hell. My brother is 23 years old so he doesn't live with us anymore. He's really smart and he's been at Yale since he was 19. He's majoring in music. My little sister is 15 years old and she's super friendly. She's also really smart, but she doesn't act like it because she doesn't want to be judged. She's one of the most popular girls at our school and she loves to be center of attention. That's how it all starts.

Isabella goodfellow is a girl with a serious mental disorder and physical disorder called anorexia she will have to find a way to live through all the ups and downs of the world, and her eating disorder before she can learn to love herself again and get better. will she ever get better will she learn to love herself again? will the love of her life ever forgive her? will her parents forgive her? read to find out.

An unfiltered, casual journal of a girl who has a bad relationship with food. TRIGGER WARNING: The story's main focus is on eating disorder. I decided to publish this so I can get things off my chest and hopefully show people that they aren't alone.

Just the normal life of a teenager girl secretly struggling with an eating disorder.

Anorexia. Something nobody believes could ruin them until it's far too late. Ivy is infected with the thoughts of anorexia. This is her story as she gradually loses herself to her mind. This story is meant to remind people of the reality of anorexia, it is a glorified disorder that is truly horrific and it takes the life of many people every year. If you or a loved one is struggling with an eating disorder get help immediately. The longer it goes on, the harder it is to get better and the more likely it is that you or they will die or suffer long term complications. Resources are available at places like the NEDA Information about eating disorders can be found at: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/what-are-eating-disorders And treatment options can be found at: https://map.nationaleatingdisorders.org/

Madeline Winters. When people hear that name whispered in the halls of McGregor high school, they think one of two things: a quiet and somewhat awkward girl to pick on, or nothing at all. What no one realizes is that they're tearing her down with each hurtful remark. Cue Asher King moving into the school, acting as his surname immediately upon entering. With his tattoos, cigarettes and rough attitude, he's anyone but someone you would want to befriend. However, he also takes an interest in her that no one else ever has from the first glimpse into her empty eyes. What he doesn't realize is just how much of a shell she's become. *deals with eating disorders #1 on mental illness - 1/26/20, 7/8/20, 12/21/21 #1 on boy - 2/12/20, 1/4/23 #2 on bully - 4/1/20 #1 on high school - 7/6/20 #1 on sad - 8/16/20 #2 on sad - 11/5/21 #1 on funny - 8/18/20, 1/25/23 #1 on ed - 11/30/20, 12/19/20, 3/25/21 #2 on girl - 12/22/20, 11/30/22 #2 on acceptance - 1/7/21 #1 on abuse - 4/11/21 #2 on teen - 5/21/22 Completed November 1, 2021

"I smile everyday. I live my life like nothing is wrong with me. No one would ever guess that I'm screaming inside or that I've secretly been hiding this huge part of my life. No one would ever know that I cry myself to sleep at night or that deep down I'm starving for help." Welcome to Anorexia. Your hostess is Ana. She'll take over from here. Suffering alone inside of your mind from a terrifying mental disorder, is something that even those who battle such a thing every day, cannot fully understand. It's like being alone 24/7 yet it's never quiet inside of your head. You can't stop the voices. You can't control your emotions. As it gets worse, you lose control of your body all together. You become prey to your disease and You can't fight back. That is what it's like for someone who has spent years of their life suffering in silence from an eating disorder. Fighting a monster that you have no chance of beating. It's almost impossible to describe the type of torture that consumes your mind. Hell. It's equivalent to pure hell.

"I fell into darkness but I didn't mind, I liked it." Amy Adams thought everything was alright, but when she heard her very best friend Rose committed suicide, her world turned upside down. Amy couldn't understand, why? But Amy found Rose's diary at her wake and everything became clear. Rose was anorexic. Rose wrote about her two guardians Ana and Mia, they helped her, or something. Amy didn't understand a thing, but not for long. Because Amy would also meet her fate with the two angels of death. Just like Rose. Amy has a hard time fitting in after her only connection to a social life left her alone. Amy get's lost and tries to save herself. But how can you pull yourself out of a hole where you can't see the edge? Amy does make new friends and she even falls in love but everything is on the verge of falling apart. How does she plan on keeping her 'new habit' a secret? and when will Amy really understand?

Today I met her , her name is Ana. She's pretty thin and beautiful. I'm friends with this girl Ana. I've start eating less, hating the person in the mirror my life become a mess. I'm scared of this girl Ana. I can't get her out of my head, it finally occured me that Ana wants me death My worst enemey is this girl called Ana. She's a demon in my head, She seemed sweet at first But I was so mislead. This is about Ana, She starve to grave , if you ever meet her you should be afraid. Ana shows no mercy. She'll take your life away, If you give any chance in your head She'll stay... ~*~ N.H. au maybe there's a bit of Niam but to find that out you better read it ;)