My thoughts are meaningless, but clearly, not everything I write down. This is raw and mostly unedited (unless I'm fixated) for personal reflection down the line.

INTENSE read if you're giving up on studying, talking, and writing. Extras: Religion, politics, and family. Disclaimer: I don't have a degree in philosophy this is just my experience. when I wrote this I loss my friend & writing has kept me sane making sense of everything. & I'm not going to go into specifics but this journal exists online because it's not a safe place to write at home. My recycling themes for future stories: -pain is constant -control is only defense -connection feels dangerous -achievement is empty -friendship exposes everybody My Formula: (All though ethos, pathos, logos!) Theory + Application = Reality Testing 1 you = tied to desire & agenda (whatever it is) 2 others = how it will be perceived and acted upon (hoax or not) 3 reality = the hardest of proving it will break all delusion (tied to another) Can someone translate some things I said into mathematics or physics in the comments?? I'm not suffering from hysteria.. there is formulas to these fr. I want to learn them but don't know where to start! You're seriously dumb if you dismiss intell for emotional outburst. You don't even deserve a creative insult, you're just stupid. My goal after this is finished is to live in a quiet province where taxes don't exist so I can live as a wizard and be unemployed for the rest of life and abandon all my works for people to read like a mythology? Historically? Online?? Idk tbh! 1 in #onlinediary & #pragmatism [11.18.25 ] #asianamerican #whatisthis #sanity #sigh #fearofffailure #physics #topstudent #whatever# #failure #ihatemyself #loseyourmimd #disillusionment [11•25•25]