This story is written in the perspective of a 19 year old girl struggling with many mental illnesses such as OCD, eating disorders, BPD, etc. She struggles with a lot of internal battles, learning to trust people, struggling with addiction, and trying to overcome her struggles and stay sober. She recently lost her best friend and is trying to navigate being a person again after the traumatic loss. She still struggles despite it happening over a year ago. Her mind is constantly full of noise and never settles down, she feels like a train wreck. Unsure how to cope besides the coping mechanisms she turns to that she has always found comforting, despite being horrible for her. Imagine a story that's sort of like a lost diary nobody is supposed to read. It is full of emotions, raw, and somewhat triggering. The first chapter has disclaimers and trigger warnings, and the second has a meet the character section with face claims and info about each character. The story truly starts at Part 3 where chapter 1 begins. "All I ever wanted was to belong. To feel normal, but instead I'll never find my people. I could have a normal life, but I fell into addiction. With drugs, as well as anorexia. I ruined myself just for an ounce of control over the disastrous, chaotic pile of bullshit my life has become. I recovered, but then lost everything again due to losing my best friend. I don't know if I'll make it out alive this time." NOTE- Everything written on phone so far. All a rough draft, no editing yet.