wahllflower
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- Parts 11
There's a nerve I want to strike, to prove to him that this control he wants to have is nothing more than an illusion. It takes more than some groceries and a little parking lot pleading to get back into my good graces.
He liked working for sh**, so let him work for this.
Rome grabs me by my elbows, pulling my body softly into his chest. My spine stiffens at the contact, the hair on my neck sticking up when he leans down to whisper into my ear.
"Come stay up a me yaad fi couple day..." he says, it's less of an ask and more of a statement.
"A yuh alone deh pon me mind enuh Nat. Eh nuh feel right fi yuh deh inna di same city as me and yuh nuh deh beside me inna me bed, baby."
I want to pull away. But there's this destabilizing electricity that laces through me every time this man touches me. It makes it hard for me to think straight. Falters my speech. F***s with my head in ways that have me reminiscing about being between his sheets.
"Natalie me need yuh." he breaths, leaving a trail of kisses up and down the nape of my neck.
What a piece a slackness inna di people dem parking lot.
"Rome..." I coo softly, wanting to stop myself but failing anyway. There was a time when I would've given in without thinking twice. Truth be told, I still craved all the same things he did.
But somewhere along the line, I came to my senses in a way that would never lead me back into his arms.
"Yeah, baby?" he says.
"F*** off." I jeer, pulling free and rushing towards the driver's side of my car, back to the safety of the life I'd been able to create without him.
Romario was every lesson I'd spent years trying to learn the hard way. Chemistry could not build a life, and desire alone could not make a man safe to love. He carried himself like a man who belonged to everybody and nobody at the same time, no matter how much he promised that I'd have all of him.
Loving him felt like standing too close to the edge of something beautiful enough to destroy me.