A reclusive, self-deprecating genius shuts himself away after a devastating tragedy. When he finally steps outside, he realizes the world has moved on without him. An unexpected act of retribution ends his life-and he awakens in the magical land of Arthia. No god grants him powers. No cheat skills. Not even the language. In this strange new world, he finds love... only to have it ripped away because of his own weakness. Now, armed with nothing but his mind and the knowledge he brought from Earth, he swears to take revenge. Can a powerless genius outthink an entire world of magic?

This story is written in the perspective of a 19 year old girl struggling with many mental illnesses such as OCD, eating disorders, BPD, etc. She struggles with a lot of internal battles, learning to trust people, struggling with addiction, and trying to overcome her struggles and stay sober. She recently lost her best friend and is trying to navigate being a person again after the traumatic loss. She still struggles despite it happening over a year ago. Her mind is constantly full of noise and never settles down, she feels like a train wreck. Unsure how to cope besides the coping mechanisms she turns to that she has always found comforting, despite being horrible for her. Imagine a story that's sort of like a lost diary nobody is supposed to read. It is full of emotions, raw, and somewhat triggering. The first chapter has disclaimers and trigger warnings, and the second has a meet the character section with face claims and info about each character. The story truly starts at Part 3 where chapter 1 begins. "All I ever wanted was to belong. To feel normal, but instead I'll never find my people. I could have a normal life, but I fell into addiction. With drugs, as well as anorexia. I ruined myself just for an ounce of control over the disastrous, chaotic pile of bullshit my life has become. I recovered, but then lost everything again due to losing my best friend. I don't know if I'll make it out alive this time." NOTE- Everything written on phone so far. All a rough draft, no editing yet.