❝Well maybe you're right but if you hadn't have hurt me so much Dazai then maybe I would have been able to love you❞. 🦋 Warning for mentions of suicide, self-harm, drugs, sexual assault and violence 🦋 I wrote this when I was 17 and now I am 21 so shhhhhhh there may be grammar and punctuation mistakes

"These scars for love, are they worth it?" What's the evidence of someone's existence? Paintings, writings... kindness? For me, it was acknowledgment. Acknowledgment of one's existence. The path to the throne was always stained in red, inked in black on the coarse pages of history. Those pages remember only those mourned or scorned- and I was neither. But I was fine with that. Because as long as your name is spoken, mine must exist somewhere, even if only on the edge of someone's lips. When I was named crown prince of Wu, the court fell into chaos. Scorned by the emperor and ignored by the empress, I clung to the Duke of Canghe, who stood by me. "If I knew you were a snake in disguise, I would have killed you that night." Three years later, the duke raised his banners in rebellion. I looked into his eyes and realized I might have lost everything-or perhaps, nothing was ever truly mine to begin with. *ORIGINAL

Main story:COMPLETED Extras:COMPLETED ___________________________ After his miserable death, Su Ying transmigrates into a glass-hearted 'white lotus' 'ger' in the ancient time who was treated wrongly by his family. He also learns that due to an Imperial edict, he's going to be sold... *cough* married off to the greatest General of the empire who's known to be a 'cut sleeve'! Su Ying looks at his own 'Heaven defying beauty' and sighs. What if he makes that guy 'straight'??? Thus, in order to save his little life and 'chastity', Su Ying makes up a scheme. At his wedding night, he cleverly binds his husband to bed while sitting on top of him, holding his chin and narrowing his own beautiful eyes- "You might be a 'cut sleeve' now, but who knows about future. You dare touch me without permission, see if I don't cut your thing and feed it to pigs." General Li Yusheng who was being 'threatened' by his extremely 'fierce' wife- "......................" ____________________________________ Most impressive rankings- # 1 - mpreg (31/08/2020) # 1 - malepregnancy (31/08/2020) # 1 - alternateuniverse (06/09/2020) # 1 - danmei (17/10/2020) # 2 - bl (11/09/2020) # 1 - yaoinovel (29/12/2020) # 2 - manxman (14-02-2021) # 1 - chinese (27/02-2021) # 4 - boyxboy (15/03/2021) # 2 - ancient (19/05/2021) # 2 - original (30/11/2021) # 1 - yaoinovel (19/12/2021) # 6 - comedy (10/02/2022) Starting date:9/08/2020 Ending date:26/06/2025 (This is an original work. PLEASE DO NOT REPOST THIS ANYWHERE WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.) *Any pictures used here don't belong to me. Credits belong to their original owner.*