Till has always been a gentle and emotionally grounded boy, trying to navigate friendship and love in an unsteady boat all by himself. At school, students called him "Creepy Till". He lived in his own world, lost in his love for art and psychology, and often forgot to exist anywhere else. He never learned how to make friends, every interaction he had was awkward, every attempt to connect clumsy and uncertain. He had a lot of fears : attention, crowds, but the biggest of all tortured him in his sleep. Till suffered from recurring nightmares since middle school. When a new student joined his class and sat beside him, Till realized that the boy whose gaze haunted his every nights truly existed, that he was more than a product of his imagination. Ivan entered his life suddenly, like a storm. He was everything Till wasn't: magnetic, confrontational, and impossible to ignore. He was unpredictable, impossible to read, his behavior was erratic, he seemed to both despise and need Till at the same time. Raised in a household where love and hate were indistinguishable, he was left with a warped sense of intimacy. The quiet rejection that Till gave him was unbearable and made him remember his lowest moments. He couldn't stand the way he looked at him and avoided him. That's why he decided that, if he was going to be hated anyway, he might as well earn it. What begins as a series of misunderstandings, lies and deliberate cruelty, soon reveals something else beneath: a desperate longing to be seen, to be loved, and to heal. This is a story about love distorted by pain, about two boys trying to bound from broken pieces. Over time, Till's quiet empathy begins to reach the wounded child buried inside Ivan. And for the first time, the raven haired boy realized that hatred isn't the same as love, and that what's truly his doesn't need to be marked in order to be real. The cover is a fanart made by @Dutd on red note ( ID：Dutdtilkhdkgd )

Ivan and Till have been best friends since childhood - inseparable, loyal, and seemingly unbreakable. But when they enter college together, the cracks in their bond begin to show. Ivan has harbored a deep, unspoken crush on Till for years, a quiet obsession that only intensifies as they grow older. Till, on the other hand, has these unfamiliar feeling. He doesn't even know what he feels anymore. While Ivan clings to their shared history and the illusion of something more, Till remains blissfully unaware or willfully ignorant, using Ivan's devotion as emotional support without realizing (or admitting) the damage it causes. Their friendship slowly turns toxic: full of emotional manipulation, guilt, dependency, and unbalanced love. Ivan can't let go, and Till can't give what Ivan needs. Eventually, the truth spills out - Ivan confesses. What follows is silence, distance, and a heartbreaking experience. Will they find love for one another? COVER ART CREDIT: @lucidkana on X This story is my idea, please don't steal from it.

Till doesn't try to disappear He just hopes people stop looking. Black hoodies in 90-degree weather. He's the kid everyone whispers about but no one really knows. Sensitive. Withdrawn. The kind of guy who walks alone in the rain without an umbrella and seems like he prefers it that way. Then there's Ivan. Star running back, loudmouth, loved by teachers and feared by freshmen. The guy who's always surrounded by people, but never really looks satisfied with any of them. He teases Till like it's a game-cold words. Everyone sees it. In a whirlwind of high school chaos, college pressures, and dangerous secrets, Till and Ivan's lives collide in ways neither could have anticipated. From the frenetic energy of pep rallies and the intensity of the football field to the terrifying darkness of gang attacks. Till and Ivan are tested in every imaginable way. Through it all, their bond strengthens-sometimes tender, sometimes playful, always fiercely protective. Amidst stolen glances, teasing smiles, and heart-stopping moments of danger, love blooms. Till discovers the courage to protect those he cares about, while Ivan learns the weight and value of vulnerability. From whispered confessions in quiet dorm rooms to the roar of cheering crowds, their journey is one of passion, trust, and the unshakable certainty that, no matter the chaos, they are each other's safe haven. [This story will contain smut, mentions of rape, includes violence and dark themes.] [COVER ART CREDIT: @lucidkana on X] This story is my idea, please don't steal from it.

Till wakes up with a headache and a horrible, horrible new ability: he can read minds. Unfortunately, one of the first ones he hears is Ivan's. Even more unfortunately, Ivan is completely obsessed with him. Capital O Obsessed. Even worse than that? He's good at hiding it. Or he was, until now.