Being Love Of the one you love is Heaven. Being with the one you wish to be is Happiness. Being happy in the side of your Love is being Contented. BUT............ Being hate Of your love one is Hell. Being with your Love one that makes them feel SUCK is Sadness. Being happy in the side Of your Love that don't feel the same way is Selfish. ........... I feel this BOTH. I feel happiness everytime my Eyes caught him. I feel Contented everytime his on my side. BUT............. I feel hell cause he hates me a LOT. I feel Sadness everytime he IGNORES me. I feel Pain because I know very well, that my Husband could never look me with love.. But How could I let him GO? If I know his my EVERYTHING.

I was 17 years old when I was kidnapped by unknown person , Mabilis ang mga pangyayari nalaman ko na lang na kasal na daw kami at asawa ko siya halos wala akong matandaan sa lahat ng pangyayari, I thought it was a dream, after our honeymoon, I got back home......na parang walang nangyari May pinasuot siya sa aking singsing na kahit anong mangyari hindi ko siya pwedeng hubarin, at kahit na gusto ko itong hubarin talaga ay ayaw naman maalis sa kamay ko..........and after a month wala na akong nabalitaan sa kanya And I told to myself , maybe that was only one of my hallucinations because of the medicines that gave it to me.......but one day nagulat na lang ako ng malaman kong buntis ako..............