please don't read this if you're a friend of mine and you're trying to view this, please don't. it makes me uncomfortable and it's honestly a huge invasion of my privacy. if you do end up reading it anyways despite me begging you not to, please don't tell me. keep it to yourself. i joke around about this existing but when you openly admit that you've read it it's kind of upsetting because i tell everyone who hears about it not to read it for my sake. thank you. (i'd unpublish this but,,,, 15.6K reads is pretty impressive and it has ranking so h a h a no)