Before the tadpole, I had turned off my feelings forever. It was easier when I couldn't control the urges. At least then, I never hurt anyone I cared about. Because I never cared about anyone. But now, I spend night after night with people. I have grown to care for them. And I can't bear to tell them the memories I have recounted. I can't bear to tell them who I really am. ~~~ A dark urge Baldur's Gate 3 fanfiction. My Dark Urge is based on an original character of mine, Teivel. He is an elf Bhaalspawn I played in a real campaign. There will be minor romance scenes with Astarion because I can't help it