eating makes me sick, not eating makes me sick, at least one makes me pretty TW// eating disorder!!

That feeling deep down in your stomach, the craving. Yeah, I've had that. But not for food or blood or lust. The emptiness achieved from not eating since Monday. That's what I craved. #414 in fanfiction lol get recked

Dan wanted to be pretty (TW: death/eating disorders/depression) Also im not good at covers if you wanna make me one thats great (@phan-tabulousphil on tumblr) Sorry for the promo but I need Current cover by Danspillow

Two anorexia patients Two untold stories Is a slim chance really enough to survive? -------- When Dan Howell is sent to a rehab full of depressed teenage girls, will he ever be able to escape his traumatic past? It's a slim chance... until Phil Lester comes along that is. -------- please be aware that this was written a long time before it was uploaded and my writing style has changed a lot since then. I won't be rewriting this to fix any mistakes so please DONT bother pointing them out thanks and enjoy!

f a t Those three letters have defined Phil his whole life. But he soon discovers another three letters that just might save him... d a n

Dan always seems normal. He is kind to his friends and loves all things nerdy, which is why kids find him an easy target. But what most people don't know, is that he is trapped in a deep state of depression that he can't get out of, thanks to the death of his father, his alcoholic step-father, the bullies at school, and the fact that everyone knows his deepest darkest secret about his sexuality, he is bi-sexual. But things suddenly change when the curious, over-enthusiastic and light-hearted new kid, Phil Lester makes his way into Dan's life, and slowly into Dan's heart and he teaches that everyone deserves a chance to be happy, and everyone has a reason to live, even if he and Phil's lives aren't perfect. *Warning!! This books contains violence and offensive language! Depression triggered*

You're Driving Me Mental sequel. Phil is slowly going insane. Well, more 'insane' then he previously thought he was. Dan is definitely more 'insane' then before, making Phil, the supporting boyfriend, want to look after him. One day Phil snaps and walks out on Dan, moving in with his parents for a while. Feeling guilty, he goes back home, unaware of what he had caused. You don't have to read the other book for this one to make any sense.

When so much damage has been done, is it possible to recover and get better?

update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance //trigger warning// //dans pov// "do you love me phil ?" "maybe i do"

Phil Lester has been bullied for years and when he is diagnosed with chronic depression it starts to go downhill. But could the new boy prove to be the light in an otherwise dark world? Read to find out. Trigger Warning: contains scenes of abuse, graphic violence, self harm, depression, bulemia, anorexia and other triggering things