Ivan and Till have been best friends since childhood - inseparable, loyal, and seemingly unbreakable. But when they enter college together, the cracks in their bond begin to show. Ivan has harbored a deep, unspoken crush on Till for years, a quiet obsession that only intensifies as they grow older. Till, on the other hand, has these unfamiliar feeling. He doesn't even know what he feels anymore. While Ivan clings to their shared history and the illusion of something more, Till remains blissfully unaware or willfully ignorant, using Ivan's devotion as emotional support without realizing (or admitting) the damage it causes. Their friendship slowly turns toxic: full of emotional manipulation, guilt, dependency, and unbalanced love. Ivan can't let go, and Till can't give what Ivan needs. Eventually, the truth spills out - Ivan confesses. What follows is silence, distance, and a heartbreaking experience. Will they find love for one another? COVER ART CREDIT: @lucidkana on X ChatGPT helped as well with details and correct terms, but overall. The story is my original idea. Did some fixes and shaped it into the story I wanted. Thank you for putting in the time to read.

𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐲, 𝐧𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠. 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: - 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐨𝐰𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐬 - 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 ©️𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐨𝐨𝐢𝐬𝐦

This is for all the fans of alien stage facing denial. It's an IvanTill story to satisfy your hunger. Enjoyy! :p DISCLAIMER: The mentioned characters DO NOT belong to me, they're VIVINOS and QMENG's creations.

Till has always been a gentle and emotionally grounded boy, trying to navigate friendship and love in an unsteady boat all by himself. At school, students called him "Creepy Till". He lived in his own world, lost in his love for art and psychology, and often forgot to exist anywhere else. He never learned how to make friends, every interaction he had was awkward, every attempt to connect clumsy and uncertain. He had a lot of fears : attention, crowds, but the biggest of all tortured him in his sleep. Till suffered from recurring nightmares since middle school. When a new student joined his class and sat beside him, Till realized that the boy whose gaze haunted his every nights truly existed, that he was more than a product of his imagination. Ivan entered his life suddenly, like a storm. He was everything Till wasn't: magnetic, confrontational, and impossible to ignore. He was unpredictable, impossible to read, his behavior was erratic, he seemed to both despise and need Till at the same time. Raised in a household where love and hate were indistinguishable, he was left with a warped sense of intimacy. The quiet rejection that Till gave him was unbearable and made him remember his lowest moments. He couldn't stand the way he looked at him and avoided him. That's why he decided that, if he was going to be hated anyway, he might as well earn it. What begins as a series of misunderstandings, lies and deliberate cruelty, soon reveals something else beneath: a desperate longing to be seen, to be loved, and to heal. This is a story about love distorted by pain, about two boys trying to bound from broken pieces. Over time, Till's quiet empathy begins to reach the wounded child buried inside Ivan. And for the first time, the raven haired boy realized that hatred isn't the same as love, and that what's truly his doesn't need to be marked in order to be real. The cover is a fanart made by @Dutd on red note ( ID：Dutdtilkhdkgd )

Ivan is constantly showered with praise, gifts, and attention so why does he feel so empty inside? Due to his very absent parents and swarm of people who like him soley for his looks rather than personality, Ivan knows no love. Things come easily to him because of his looks, charm and abilities. Everyone loves him which is why nobody interests him. Till on the other hand, a new transfer student, moved with his mom after leaving his abusive dad. Things never came easy to Till which is why the pure existence of Ivan infuriates him. Though what Till doesn't know is how interesting this concept is to Ivan. TW: abuse, homophobia, slurs, idk what else (THIS IS ALSO ON AO3 UNDER MY SAME USERNAME)

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