i whisper with my lips close to your ear, i have loved many women and men, but i love none better than you. o i have been dilatory and dumb, i should have made my way straight to you long ago, i should have blabb'd nothing but you, i should have chanted nothing but you. -walt whitman, to you ~~~~~~~~ basically just the plot of dead poets society but if neil and todd were a thing

Neil's life was pre-constructed, he never dared to question or falter; until he met Todd that is. To Neil, Todd was the embodiment of rebellion, everything he'd never dared to obtain yet everything he feverishly craved. Throughout the course of these chapters, Neil learns things - unimaginable things - about himself, life, love, and the fact he would trade the whole world to be able to live freely and deeply.

"I snuck into her room even though her father said not to, I just look at her on her bed. It looks like she hasn't slept or eaten in days. She finally looks at me with the same look i remember all to well. When she finally looked at me she didn't care to smile at me, yell, turn away from me, she just looked at me. I wanted her to do something but instead she stayed there quiet. She was numb, she didn't care, nothing mattered to her anymore. The same look I saw all those years ago in the emergency room, a look I thought I'd never see again." -Rafe Delilah Elle Summers, a beautiful girl with a beautiful soul. Best friends with Sarah Beth Cameron, they met through their mothers who were also best friends since they were little. With the Cameron family also comes Rafe, he's aggressive, he's complicated. But Delilah doesn't care, she knows Rafe and chooses to see the good in him. "You're screwed up and brilliant Look like a million dollar man So why is my heart broke? You've got the world But baby, at what price? Something so strange Hard to define It isn't that hard, boy To like you or love you I'd follow you down, down, down You're unbelievable If you're going crazy Just grab me and take me I'd follow you down, down, down Anywhere, anywhere" - Million dollar man lana del rey