things can't always be bottled up. [lowercase intended // may contain second person point of view // trigger warning]

April Maiden, as we know is depressed and suffers with immense problems. With new trauma and situations will Luke and April keep their relationship going? A second book,with more heart warming, tense and gripping chapters. Will April keep the boys with her, or will they all loose her? Read the Sequel to Self Harm, Depression & The Janoskians and find out!

"What would you do if I jumped off this bridge, right in front of your eyes?" "I'd jump with you." ***(Ok I wrote this a while ago and it's so bad bUT ENJOY)***

Ashton is okay right now. He's always like this after a bad bout. He starts off saying that the world is his oyster and he loves everyone, but when the energy and fresh success fades, so does he. Luke knows. He knows about all of Ashton's problems. He knows about the time Ashton was bullied nearly to the brink, the family deaths and friend losses, and the ups and downs, the latter of which seem to be more common lately. It's been so easy lately for Ashton to slip after a joke gone wrong, or a jab on Twitter. Ashton always says he's sorry, repeating it again and again if only to convince himself. Luke knows he's sorry, knows that he can't help it. And he'll sit by the bathtub for hours, holding Ashton, to make sure that he knows someone loves him. None of the other boys know. Ashton couldn't bring himself to tell them and face their disapproving stares too, and he wouldn't let Luke tell them, so he's stuck in this half state of secrecy and confession to Luke. Ashton hasn't gone too far yet, not far enough that Luke can't patch him up with gauze, antibiotics, and a long hug. But someday, someday, Luke knows Ashton won't be able to take it anymore, and Ashton will die. And Luke will be all alone.