lowercase intended. trigger warnings: rape, self-harm, mentions of suicide, smut (josh tops), use of drugs and alcohol!! be safe. start date: november 28, 2016. end date: june 21, 2017. 1k reads: june 22, 2017 5k reads: november 11, 2018 18k reads: november 19, 2019 20k reads: april 9, 2020