"Everyone is alone. It's not like someone can live in your head for you. We are alone, alone adjacent to each other. There will always be secrets that we keep under lock and key, but we won't know if trust is worth it until we jump. There's no reason to be afraid. Those who you're afraid to lose, you would have lost anyway. And that's the point. To find people who are there, who stay when you are at your worst." ------ A high stakes murder mystery where the answer to the questions will result in war between immensely rich mafia families. One arranged engagement, two very different couples, four plots for the future, one goal: FREEDOM. This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental

Sam wasn't always strong, stoic or cold. In fact as a kid he was talkative, bubbly, and too kind. That all changed his sixth grade year when he was relentlessly bullied by Jem. After a near death experience Sam has sworn off relying on or trusting others. This is put to the test when he begins college. Jem used to be strong, confident, and cruel which is nothing compared to his shy, self deprecating, and severe anxiety driven self in the present. After bullying and nearly causing the death of Sam he changed forever. Now all he wants is forgiveness. And when they end up in the same major at the same college he thinks he finally has a chance. PLEASE READ AESTHETICS FIRST. IT GIVES A FULL LIST OF TRIGGER WARNINGS AND DISCLAIMERS. THIS IS A VERY DARK BOOK MY DUDES. DO NOT TAKE THE SAUCE LIGHTLY. Warning This book contains bullying, homophobia, mention of self harm, and some rough sex My friends say I should change the title to fifty shades of gay...