Ivan is constantly showered with praise, gifts, and attention so why does he feel so empty inside? Due to his very absent parents and swarm of people who like him soley for his looks rather than personality, Ivan knows no love. Things come easily to him because of his looks, charm and abilities. Everyone loves him which is why nobody interests him. Till on the other hand, a new transfer student, moved with his mom after leaving his abusive dad. Things never came easy to Till which is why the pure existence of Ivan infuriates him. Though what Till doesn't know is how interesting this concept is to Ivan. TW: abuse, homophobia, slurs, idk what else (THIS IS ALSO ON AO3 UNDER MY SAME USERNAME)

Till has always been a gentle and emotionally grounded boy, trying to navigate friendship and love in an unsteady boat all by himself. At school, students called him "Creepy Till". He lived in his own world, lost in his love for art and psychology, and often forgot to exist anywhere else. He never learned how to make friends, every interaction he had was awkward, every attempt to connect clumsy and uncertain. He had a lot of fears : attention, crowds, but the biggest of all tortured him in his sleep. Till suffered from recurring nightmares since middle school. When a new student joined his class and sat beside him, Till realized that the boy whose gaze haunted his every nights truly existed, that he was more than a product of his imagination. Ivan entered his life suddenly, like a storm. He was everything Till wasn't: magnetic, confrontational, and impossible to ignore. He was unpredictable, impossible to read, his behavior was erratic, he seemed to both despise and need Till at the same time. Raised in a household where love and hate were indistinguishable, he was left with a warped sense of intimacy. The quiet rejection that Till gave him was unbearable and made him remember his lowest moments. He couldn't stand the way he looked at him and avoided him. That's why he decided that, if he was going to be hated anyway, he might as well earn it. What begins as a series of misunderstandings, lies and deliberate cruelty, soon reveals something else beneath: a desperate longing to be seen, to be loved, and to heal. This is a story about love distorted by pain, about two boys trying to bound from broken pieces. Over time, Till's quiet empathy begins to reach the wounded child buried inside Ivan. And for the first time, the raven haired boy realized that hatred isn't the same as love, and that what's truly his doesn't need to be marked in order to be real. The cover is a fanart made by @Dutd on red note ( ID：Dutdtilkhdkgd )

Vous êtes-vous déjà demandé à quoi ressemblait le monde vu de l'extérieur ? Moi, je me demandais à quoi il ressemblait vu de l'intérieur. Mais j'étais coincé derrière la vitre de mon bocal, ne pouvant qu'observer placidement la vie qui m'entourait. J'étais curieux. Et peut-être que c'est cette curiosité qui m'a donnée des ailes. Enfin... plutôt des jambes. " - Bonjour ! Je m'appelle Félix ! Et toi, c'est comment ton nom ? " ~ Humour ~ Léger ~ Romance ~ Tranche de vie ~ Warnings : Langage cru, nudité, allusions au sex ~ Environ 1 500 mots par chapitres ~ 78 chapitres