Faye Carter moves to Seattle for college and finally gets to see the world for herself. She meets Kurt, and the connection is instant: intense, creative, and a little chaotic. Love, music, and addiction collide, and Faye has to figure out what's real and what's falling apart.

When Kristen joins Hole and relocates to the Pacific Northwest, her days reduce to a predictable inventory: amplifiers, hotels, expectations, and Kurt Cobain. As the list grows longer, so does the cost of staying. Some people leave. Others don't.

"you know i'm such a fool for you you've got me wrapped around your finger do you have to let it linger?" life and death. dreams and reality. desire and hatred. hope and despair. two sides of the same coin. each choice you make is a flip of the coin, a gamble made, hoping to get your desired outcome. molly bardot flipped this coin often, and often, it seemed, it landed on the wrong side. told against the backdrop of seattle's snow-capped mountains and infamous 90s music scene, this story follows one girl trying to climb while everyone falls around her.

The year is 1989, and living in Hollywood is every young persons dream. But surrounding yourself with the company of rising stars can be the difference between a dream and a nightmare. - (This story is the result of continuous research, meaning most events in this story are real accounts of River's life and the experiences people have recalled with him. Note that some events are altered to fit the addition of new characters. PLEASE know that this contains some strong content, due to the realistic portrayal of River's personal life.) Feel free to message me about any questions you have regarding content or factual information! Enjoy :) RIP RJP 8/23/1970-10/31/1993

" i wish you would tell me how you really feel. . . " • • • IN WHICH a bad brains tape marks the beginning of a life-changing friendship between a new boy next door and the queen of the santa monica skate scene. an abundant nirvana au based on lyrics by best coast. • • • " but you'll never tell me 'cause that's not our deal. . . "

"many a hand has scaled the grand old face of the plateau some belong to strangers and some to folks you know. . ." " • • • IN WHICH two teens who once bonded over the tenacious grip of a dead boy's memory learn to forgive and forget faint reminders of bitter pasts. sequel to "lake of fire". a modest high school au based on lyrics by meat puppets. • • • "you see a lot up there but don't be scared who needs actions when you got words. . ."

In the heart of early '90s Seattle, Haevyn battles her own demons while leading her band, Eden's Ashes. When Kurt Cobain notices her raw talent at a party, their worlds collide, intertwining fame, music, and addiction in a story of struggle, temptation, and the fight to stay alive.