"Catharsis in darkness when you can't seem to feel a thing. The absence that haunts you won't hurt much longer." - Motionless In White Valerie has been in survival mode for as long as she can remember. The past doesn't let go easily, and neither does her own mind. Somehow she's managed to build something that almost feels like a life, but no matter how stable things may seem on the outside, there are parts of herself she can't outrun. And then there's also this ever-present feeling that something is missing in her life. Something she can't point to. Something she can't explain. Until someone she never could have foreseen playing a role in her life gives that feeling a name. And that name is Chris. ⚠️ 18+ This story contains mature themes and potential triggers, including mental health struggles, loss and grief, drug use, violence, and explicit sexual content. Please see "Content Notes" chapter for detailed disclaimer and content warning.