This is my collection of my personal essays and reflections on life, music and trauma collected from my diary, and from my substack, book 2. This is not a memoir but a collection of essays or perspectives that will entertain, amuse, and make the reader think and sometimes second guess what life should be like and not. This has anecdotes from my life and childhood which were bitter sweet and sometimes traumatic at times. Though I will tell you: you may or may not relate to what happened in my life. That being said I had quite the life and it has given me wisdom (both from the easy and hard way) that you might not get anywhere else in this world. I was also taught to write essays in high school though annoying they kept me from losing my cool except for the religious stuff. That being said if you are looking to find out what drive me (nuts) and to do the things I do in life. Well here you go! Everything from life, music, and trauma and everything in between. Though I also write songs, poetry and fictional stories. I hope that people would see this as a source of wisdoms and inspiration to be themselves and not fit in. That being said I will be adding to this daily though I will be very busy. Perfect reading if you are neurospicy or a creative person. So feel free to learn the easy way and not the hard. TW: Incest, mental health/ptsd, sexual assault, self harm, depression, suicide, and bullying, talk of eating disorders and terrorism, and abuse

This is my collection of my personal essays and reflections on life, music and trauma collected from my diary, and from my substack This is not a memoir but a collection of essays or perspectives that will entertain, amuse, and make the reader think and sometimes second guess what life should be like and not. This has anecdotes from my life and childhood which were bitter sweet and sometimes traumatic at times. Though I will tell you: you may or may not relate to what happened in my life. That being said I had quite the life and it has given me wisdom (both from the easy and hard way) that you might not get anywhere else in this world. I was also taught to write essays in high school though annoying they kept me from losing my cool except for the religious stuff. That being said if you are looking to find out what drive me (nuts) and to do the things I do in life. Well here you go! Everything from life, music, and trauma and everything in between. Though I also write songs, poetry and fictional stories. I hope that people would see this as a source of wisdoms and inspiration to be themselves and not fit in. That being said I will be adding to this daily though I will be very busy. Perfect reading if you are neurospicy or a creative person. So feel free to learn the easy way and not the hard. TW: Incest, mental health/ptsd, sexual assault, self harm, depression, suicide, and bullying, talk of eating disorders and terrorism, and abuse. ⚰️rankings⚰️ #1-ptsdawareness #1 -anti-bullying #1 -life and times #1- personal essays #1 -personofcolour #1-substack #2 -essays #3-scoliosis Final word count: 50,504

When Ranoldie walks into Herbert West's life she doesn't know the trouble she will cause him and soon a twisted romance starts to blossom. He is a brilliant medical genius who seemed reserved and calm thought he doesn't seem to have a heart and he is blunt and obsessive. Though he seems troubled not just with death but he had a traumatic childhood from the loss of his mother, his drunk father beating him as a child though he seemed to excel in school. He never has room for love or affection. That was until he meets Ranoldie, a French American medical student who would prove to be difficult and fascinating. She is a first year medical student who is in love with Herbert West, her mentor. She is stubborn when it comes to what she wants and desires in love which would be to spend the night with him. She is seductive and intelligent too. She has her own traumatic past with losing her family in a terrorist attack and she vowed to help find a cure for death. She is creative and reserved too. She is a home body that is until he says that she is beautiful and graceful. ✦ ✦ ✦ "Kiss me tenderly and deeply," I begged Herbert as we made love in the lab for the first time. "I never thought I would desire anyone Rannie," Herbert said breathlessly as he grabs my hair and kisses me on the mouth. The sweetest and most loving kiss I ever had in my life. "Until you!" "I love you with all my DNA!"

A woman has summoned a demon though she can not handle this as she originally thought. Soon she becomes possessed! A woman summons a demon through the spirit (oujia) board and soon ends up having unexplained erotic experiences, each during her witching hour. And soon she will be obsessed and possessed by the demon only known as the fox! Then she is drawn to a tree that people in town called the torture tree. A metamorphosis starts to happened and she becomes a succubus ever so slowly. The torture tree was a tree on the Appalachian mounts where the locals believed that people were tortured up to the nineteen sixties on different occasions. When the woman sees that she is starting to changing, it was a slow and painful process. Both emotionally and physically. Though she doesn't know very much about the history of the tree. The woman would soon see the gruesome history of the torture tree. But what happens when she can not be saved. This is a story about erotic spiritual warfare. This is a spooky and creepy allegory about what happens when you approach something you should never even try to understand. And there are things that you should never even try to understand. There are reasons why this story is rated 18+, heavy triggers and some sex. So before you start reading this, check your trigger and your age. This is not for the faint of heart. But will be in compliance with terms of use. The opening scene will be an assault scene so just be aware.

A young woman is kidnapped from her home in LA, California, where she falls in love with her captor. Willow is a young woman who was the apple in everyone's eye. But one blue moon night she started feel uneasy about everything. When she soon finds herself waking up to someone rummaging through the house looking for her. But instead of threatening willow was instead kissed by the man who would be her captor. Halim was someone who had been obsessed with willow for about a year now, things were just about to escalate when he breaks into her house only to find her asleep and starting to wake up when he comes to collect his prize. A troubled young man who wants just to be loved by a beautiful woman! Will this blue moon be different from the last? Genres: Dark Romance/erotica story (18+) Friends to lovers story Erotic thriller story (18+) Kidnapping story Slow burn romance story (18+)

Falling in love is usually very heard to cope with, but when you fall in love with your calculus professor the equations are not the only things that are complex. For Summer O' Rylie, she never had much in the way of luck with love. You usually this would get her into worlds of trouble with the people who cared about her. But when here calculus professor would promise to keep her out of trouble, well things just get more and more messier for her in the beginning as she deals with bullying and drama from other students in the university. But what will happen when trouble will come do her in the end she soon finds herself starting to feel an emotion she is uncomfortable with, love. For Dimitri Joseph, he wanted to keep her out of trouble, though the Russian man seems to be trouble himself. Also dealing with the same uncomfortable emotion, love. When Dimitri finds himself in trouble with other people as well. But what happened when love reigns? 🌕#1 -antibullying🌌 🌕#1- mathematics 🌌 🌕#1-physics🌌

When Anna started university (again :p) in the fall so does the emotion of obsession and love. Will things add up this time? When Anna learned that Isa and Ilja are having difficulty it's in the relationship. She doesn't waste time to help the pick up the pieces. Though there are more obstacles with mystery email start coming to Ilja and her. Though this could be a prank but it could be real. She soon finds that the emails are from a woman named marina, who existence she previously knew about. Now the situation would just get more complicated than that. When Anna see that she would be friends with the same hurt woman, Isa who started be friends with Anna. But when she finds out that Anna is invoked with Ilja again. How will she cope with this new development? The Second book in the theorem of desire series

When a social outcast would be going to college not only does she deal with a bully but she also falls in love. Anna Soccers is a punk rocker and college student who is not just gifted in art but apparently math and physics too. Though she had to deal with enough trauma to do one soldier (she was bullied in grade 8) and then she falls in love with her math/psychics professor Ilja Dimitrova who is a Chechen- American professor who is mysteriously and cute. But he is darkly (like vampire) handsome and he is a brilliant but tortured mind. This is not just a romance novel but an allegory about what bullying and other trauma will do to someone's spirit. Final word count: approx 40,000 words.

A scary assortment of stories that will have you have wondering if your are in this dimension or not. From cages ghosts to other horror stories that I can cook up in my crazy kitchen. This is the first anthology of horror stories that will have you questioning the reality we live in and our sanity and what we believe in. Though this is about horror and the paranormal. This will not be extreme but it will rated 18+ for obviously reasons (disturbing content and gore). That being said I hope you are scared. Happy Halloween and happy new year. (TW: mental health, violent death, suicide, torture, criminal activities, trauma, assault and S.A (sexual assault) and some demonic possession in the book.)

Poem collection about the life, fantasy and worlds of me, Elena Melanson. This is a poem collection though I started to write this about a year ago, this is the only therapy I have other the. Music and mindfulness, which do work. I wanted to write some thing about the life but I also wanted to write a poem book of everything. Though I don't know who do do this just yet. Feel free to read this if you want. This is about life in general/ fantasy and even trauma! Though I want to publish this. Basically song writing and writing poetry and just writing in general is why I am still on this planet so be great full i do this :) **cover photo was of by magic gravity ball that turned into a photography ball too which a friend gave me just yesterday. This is a ball similar to what David Bowie was "using in the movie the labyrinth (my favourite movie other then kill bill or united 93.)