Sometimes love can't reach you. So you fade. Cheyenne Carter has spent years pretending she's okay-pretending she doesn't notice when people leave, when promises fall apart, when love always seems to belong to someone else. Then she meets Matteo DeLuca. He's reckless and warm and devastating in all the ways that matter. With him, Cheyenne begins to believe that maybe, just maybe, she could finally be enough for someone. But love isn't always kind. Because just when she starts to trust him... Matteo turns toward someone else. And suddenly Cheyenne is left with the one thought she can't escape: God... I wish I were her. A deeply emotional romance about first love, heartbreak, jealousy, healing, and discovering that sometimes the greatest love story is the one where you finally choose yourself