Love is not for me. I feel distance towards loving someone fully, I try letting out my feelings, but it will always be hurried in the deep. Love is Hate for me, because I grew up always independent, everyone thinks I don't get burned up by all the responsibilities. Not everyone is Expressive, like me. I bury it under deep in my Heart. Althea Diaz is distant towards everyone except her friends, she doesn't know how to express her feelings, because she grew up independent without guide. Parents are sometimes unfair in treating their children. Althea doesn't know how to fully love a person. This story is mixed with the author's real life experiences, this story is for the people who grew up not Expressing their feelings to people because of the trauma they had in the past. [unedited]