The sacrifices he's made for a love that may never be returned are slowly destroying him. °°° Philip, an embodiment of dominance and cruelty in high school, carries a dangerous secret, one that could further strain his already fragile relationship with a cold, powerful Billionaire Riff who, for the first time, made him feel small.. Hatred became obsession. The boy who never flinched at violence now finds himself paralyzed by fear and longing for the one person he can never have. He clings to every scrap of attention, no matter how cold or distant, in the desperate hope that one day he might be seen, cared for or loved by him. His life spirals into more nightmare when.... °°° "Please...." I whispered My hand reached out, trembling, as I tried to touch him, but I stopped just inches from his skin. I couldn't do it, terrified he'd pull away. I let my hand fall. "I love you," I whispered again, "Please...Just something. What do I have to do for you to hold me?" ___ This isn't a typical story where characters fall in love quickly! Content Warning‼️ This book includes depictions of drug use, peer pressure, non consensual situation, and other sensitive topics that may be triggering or upsetting to some readers Please note that I do not condone or encourage these actions in any way. They are just fictional narrative, and I believe anyone involved in such activities should face legal consequences or seek help. Readers discretion is strongly advised! Read The Tags!

[ boyxboy ] Lennon Lewis doesn't feel quite alright. He is slowly but surely reaching for the stars with his rock band and is adored by everyone who meets him. He should be happy. But he's either too high or too low. The sweet relief is only temporary and it seems he can only breathe when he's high enough, drunk enough or on stage performing. But what happens when his notebook is sitting open in front of him, taunting him with blank pages that should have been filled with lyrics? Well, Lennon meets him. William Hamilton-Smith walks into his world unexpectedly and calms the chaotic storms inside him. Or does he cause unstoppable hurricanes in both of their lives? Inside the walls of one room they are almost safe, almost in love, almost complete, almost honest. Almost. Started: March 2019 Completed: June 2021

[ boyxboy ] When a nameless boy finds himself torn between the comfort of his childhood and adult temptation he captures the attention of an eccentric and charming clubber who is eager to introduce him to more than just the new city's attractions. This is a gritty heartbreaking story about innocence lost in the urban wild party scene. This is a story about overwhelming, intense, addictive, all-consuming love. This is a story about him. Started: July 2021 Completed: December 2021 🥈 Borderverse awards - Teen fiction 🥈 The Pillow awards - Best writing style

[ boyxboy ] When a big family wedding brings eighteen-year-old Jordan Maxwell to the city of the east coast of Spain he never expects to fall in love with more than the lush Mediterranean weather and the juiciest, sweetest oranges in the world. The Silva twins are majestic, mysterious, and shameless but they represent everything that Jordan despises - they are rich, spoiled and Instagram famous. Their beauty is blinding as the Valencian sun, and he will desperately try to shield himself from their overwhelming presence and the secrets they hide. But one of them will not only burn his skin but also warm his heart. And there's no chance of escaping Valencia when that happens. Started: March 2022 Completed: October 2022 🥇 in Romance category - Starlight Awards Featured on Ambassador's @TeenFiction reading list February 2023.

[ boyxboy ] Ollie: To everyone else, I'm the perfect son to a ruling monarch of Monaco and my country's golden boy. One day I'll be the King, I will marry a nice woman and provide heirs to my family's monarchy. But beneath the surface, I'm hiding desires only one person knows - my bully, my tormentor, my crush - Jesse Olsen. So when Jesse walks back into my life, and I'm forced to be close to the object of my obsession, my life becomes hell. He's the most infuriating person I've ever met. A man who's made it his sole purpose in life to chase me like he's chasing one of his rivals on the race track. A dark, chaotic presence that distracts me. Yet I'm not strong enough to fight him. We are the worst idea ever, bound for failure and agony. Jesse: My career as a Formula 1 driver skyrockets when I get signed with a prestigious team and move to live in Monaco. I'm getting all the fame, money, sex, everything I want. What I don't expect to find there is a staircase that leads me to a secret room. I don't expect to see the most beautiful man I've ever set my eyes on. I don't expect to experience an attraction so potent that I lose sight of why I'm in Monaco to begin with - to win the Monaco Gran Prix, to win a title, to become a racing legend. And if I'm not careful, I might lose something else entirely. Like my heart. Because Olivier Philippe is a royalty - a Prince, and he's never going to belong to me. Started: January 2025 Completed: