❝A struggle with body image is a study of physicalities and of the mind itself, for the mind plays with what the eyes perceive. The body, mind, and soul are connected, and it is up to us to determine how to respect them.❞ - Me These writings are my observations and perspectives, some full of laughter and fun, others painful and dark, suffocating, leaving me with nowhere to run. ❀❀❀❀❀❀❀ A collection of unedited poems I wrote extemporaneously (ages 14-15), as well as a chockfull of quotes. This books contains my: Poems 1-104 & Quotes 1-95. Formerly known as: ❛My Poems and Quotes Book (Vol. I),❜ 2016-May 2020. ❀❀❀❀❀❀❀ A W A R D S Chosen for recognition during Wattpad's 2021 Black History Month celebration: added to multiple Wattpad verified shortlists, #CelebrateBlackLivesMatter, Black Stories Matter,...; promoted on Instagram; featured on Wattpad's home page. Best Rankings (That I saw in 2021 so far): February 6, 2021: #1 in poetrycollection out of 23.1K stories; #10 in poem out of 160K stories; #9 in poems out of 91.8K; #23 in thoughts out of 79.1K; #20 in nonfiction out of 40K; #8 in thoughtsandfeelings out of 10.5K stories; #10 in wonder out of 5.7K stories. Best Ranking (That I saw in 2016): December 13, 2016: #85 in Poetry (I hit 65 before but Idk what day it was .-.) THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR PUTTING UP WITH THIS BS BOOK!! :D 2017: Second Place Winner of Wattpad Oscars; Third Place Winner of WritersStruggle Awards.

This is a collection of... things that I can't exactly say but let's just put it in a way that the entries here are sort of a monologue plus diary plus poetry dumped in a piece of thoughts. And when I said thoughts, those are GRAYS. Why gray and not any other colors? Well, we associate colors for different symbolisms. Two special cases are black being evil and dark and white being clean, pure, and good. But the thing here is... those two colors blend. You can't say a gray is black if it's lighter, and a gray is white when you can see that it has darkness in it. Like the thoughts I poured and written as these entries. For me, gray symbolizes hopelessness. Emptiness. Lifelessness. Imbalance. Confusion. And depression. And when I look at the mirror, I will always see what's really going on inside my head. I will always hear in my mind the thoughts that wouldn't just haunt me at midnight but also when I'm alone and distraught. Those personal thoughts... are gravestones, of whom madness awakes anytime it gets a chance. Toxicity, mockery, melancholy, and anything that can go inside of someone's mind. So here they are... and that mirror will reflect it on you, not to make you one of them but to put your feet on those dusty shoes.

What do you do when the world is quiet but your mind won't shut up? 3 AM Unsent Messages is a haunting, intimate collection of fragmented thoughts, whispered confessions, and emotional snapshots scribbled in the dark. Equal parts journal, poetry, and stream-of-consciousness therapy, this book captures the sleepless moments where memories hit hardest, regrets echo loudest, and truths are too raw to say aloud. With the vulnerable honesty of a midnight voicemail and the strange comfort of a stranger's open diary, these unsent messages explore love, loss, nostalgia, and the beautiful chaos of being awake when everyone else is dreaming. This is not a book you read... it's one you feel. This is especially made for anyone who has ever stared at the ceiling and thought, "I shouldn't be feeling this much right now." PS. some photos used as chapter covers aren't mine. ALL CREDITS TO THE RIGHTFUL OWNER/S.

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Write poetry or do not, there is no try

"just that" - my second collection of poems. It's heavily influenced mainly by the romance around me since July started, then the small moments I keep experiencing or just once in a blue moon, the third album of Olivia Rodrigo which is "you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love", and songs of my favorite singer-songwriter Taylor Swift. I am in the moment of my life where life and romance are both bittersweet, frustrating, encouraging, happy, and nostalgic. So some poems here are most of the time personal and some are through inspirations. And yeah, cringe or corny too. Haha. And experimental, yes. It is also anthological, meaning, this are different lives and different perspectives from different imaginary people. "just that" because I am torn of wanting for things to stay just like that or I want those to not stay like that and improve, excel, or become better and beautiful. I am hoping some things would stay the way they are despite a changing world. I am hoping some things wouldn't stay the way they are despite a constant world. I'm just hoping and hoping... #1: i wish you find it cute #2: somewhere safe #3: keep it with you #4: jade #5: lessons #6: while it lasts #7: get out of my mind #8: why can't i move on? #9: lost toy #10: secret #11: treasure under snow #12: spring of ghost #13: rainy summer #14: eye contact #15: treat me well #16: so sweet #17: becoming silent, sweetheart #18: feelings' so corny #19: poetic license -- #20: like you #21: right for you #22: makes me wonder #23: confession and closure #24: break the rules #25: no perfect act