The life I had built with her was gone, back to square one. But why did it feel so real, her touch still lingered on my skin. I had a longing desire to feel it again, but I had no idea where to look. And then I saw her again. I thought to myself, I must be dreaming. ~~~~ This book does contain mature themes, please read at your own risk.

Billie Eilish is a new pop star, and her best friend Maya Ellis is unsure of this newfound fame. The two have been close since a young age, both being homeschooled together. Whilst both their lives are different from one another, they both know that they love each other, maybe more than friends. -- WARNING - This book will contain triggering topics and elements including, Suicidal Ideation, Self-Harm, Abuse, Family Trauma, and Sexual Assault. There will be trigger warnings evident at the start of the containing chapter, if these themes are distressing, please feel free to skip them. If you or a loved one is experiencing any of the following, support and resources are available to you. Smut will also be included. -- STARTED: 5th October 2022 RESTARTED: 22nd April 2025 COMPLETED: 11th August 2025

Walking away wasn't supposed to be the end of their story. It was the beginning of learning how to love each other right. But some wounds don't heal in silence. And some people don't survive it. Because the worst damage doesn't happen during the apocalips. It happens in the afterlight. The question is, how much of yourself can you sacrifice for love before there's nothing left of you to give?

She swore she'd only give herself to someone she loved. She didn't expect it to be her. The night of the Met Gala was supposed to be just another night of cameras, designer gowns, and champagne smiles. But when supermodel Claire Harbour crossed paths with Billie Eilish, everything she thought she knew about control began to unravel. What started as stolen glances on the red carpet turned into breathless gasps behind closed doors. Under Billie's touch, Claire broke the one rule she promised she'd never cross. Because this wasn't just a hook-up. This was her first time. And Billie Eilish was the one who took it.