🖤 Eli's world is fracturing. His father skipped town, and his mother is slipping into old, vicious habits. Between keeping his two younger brothers safe, managing life in a strange new town, and walking on eggshells around a mother drowning in whiskey, his existence is an exercise in survival. But his waking life holds a darker terror: the blackouts. Hours vanish, memory fails, and he is left terrified of what he's capable of in the missing time. The only quiet in his head is a recurring dream-a stranger. He thinks she's just a harmless glitch in his sleep, a phantom he can leave behind when morning hits. But when reality violently crashes into his quiet spaces, Eli discovers his strangest dream is no longer staying behind his closed eyes. 💚 ⚠️ Content Warnings: Substance abuse, family trauma/neglect, psychological distress/blackouts, and mild violence/gore. Contains mature themes, heavy angst, and slow-burn tension.⚠️

"best friend? you're not my fucking best friend. if you were my best friend you'd know that i've liked him for a while now!" i snap back. "i liked him first but i never told you because i knew you'd go after him but look. i didn't even have to tell you...you did it anyways!" WARNING: CURRENTLY EDITING!!! ✧˖°. most impressive rankings starting 2/7/21 ✧˖°. ✧ #1 in lust→ 2/7/21 ✧ #1 in teens→ 3/2/21 ✧ #2 in boyfriend→ 4/11/21 ✧ #1 in completed→ 4/25/21 ✧ #2 in boyfriend→ 11/18/21 ✧ #3 in boyfriend→ 3/6/22 ✧ #3 in forbidden→ 6/12/22 ✧ #5 in bestfriends→ 8/20/22 ✧ #7 in teens→ 8/27/23 ✧ #6 in teenromance→ 9/6/23 ✧ #1 in teenromance→ 10/10/23 ✧˖°. i've rewritten this book so many times but i was like 13 when i first wrote it so warningggg: teenage plot ✧˖°.