I don't know why I'm still alive, when everyone I loved is dead. I don't know why I carry on with life, when theres nothing to carry on for. I don't know why I drag myself to school everyday, just to come back weeping and bullied. I don't know why I eat, when I'd rather starve and get done with life. I don't know why....there HAS to be a reason... the only reason.... is Nicholas. Nicholas Santiago. The one who stole my heart.