Making imagines first time trying out don't hate they can be clean or ⚠dirty⚠some may have part two if you want one just comment

Do you ever wake up, feeling the highest dread pulling you down? Do you ever go to school and put on your brightest smile and laugh and no matter what you think to yourself, "things are gonna be okay" but really....things couldn't get worse. People mistake you for the most joyful and happiest individual they have ever met but once again it's only a judgement from who you are on the outside. What about the inside? Truth is you fear showing who you are on the inside. I fear showing who I am on the Inside because so many things could go wrong. Yet I smile. For them. Because I cant let anyone down. I'm astrid, and I want to tell you....how I am probably the happiest person you'll ever meet.