*Triggering* Ashton Irwin. The drummer for the band 5 Seconds of Summer. He is a closeted gay and plans to keep it that way. He has a crush on his best friend and fellow band mate Luke Hemmings. But Luke Hemmings is straight and has a beautiful girlfriend. Also nobody knows that Ashton hates himself and wants to die. He's slowly killing himself by self harm and anorexia. He's slowly wasting away and nobody notices. Will anybody be able to fix the broken boy before it's too late? *this story will be Ashton's POV unless I say so*

Ashton's life has turned upside down. He's fallen in love with his best friend, and his depression's started up again, but now it's even worse than ever. Ashton becomes really good at hiding his feelings, but is hiding them really a good decision?