~BOOK 2 OF THE BRENDON URIE/PANIC! AT THE DISCO TRILOGY~ Some time had passed after the events of the past between Hannah, Ryan, and Brendon. Some of those things, none of them were proud of. Ryan was fighting for his life while Hannah hoped and prayed that he would end up being okay. With the exception of a few bumps in that road. Brendon, happy to be rid of his crazy ex-fiancee, finally gets the nerve to try and be committed once again. But this time to someone whom he had been blinded from practically his entire life. Old memories begin to pop up, leaving Hannah wondering if her life would ever be happy and normal again.

~BOOK 1 OF THE BRENDON URIE/ PANIC! AT THE DISCO TRILOGY~ As the sister of Ryan Ross, the guitarist of the famous pop punk band Panic! At The Disco from Las Vagas Nevada, Hannah Ross had everything but the life you'd expect her to have. Sure there was the happiness and music from her talented brother to keep her occupied. But she didn't grow up with the greatest childhood, of which she covered up those internal scars with the help of her brother and as she would come to realize, her closest friends. That was until something changed. The world around her had stopped when Ryan did something she never thought he would ever do. Which left Hannah wondering if she would ever see her friends again. If she would ever get a chance to tell the one and only Brendon Urie how she felt. (both as a friend and her hope of something more) Even then, will there something else in the way of Hannah doing that? Would she have to take measures into her own hands, or leave it be?

This is a Ryden stand-alone book. So basically you can message/comment/post on my profile and tell me what you want as a stand-alone and I'll create it in a chapter, but it'll be long like a regular stand-alone. Example; Tour AUs Store AUs High School AUs Library AUs etc. ~Anything you can think of.~ -Be creative and I'll make it happen -

Ryan loves many things about Brendon, the list can go on. But he keeps little notes in a box, under the bed to remind himself of those things.

Yes, it exists. In Nevada, there is a institution just for homosexual teens that have these 'special' thoughts. Crazy parents send their trouble teenagers for while, in hope that their child will magically become straight when they return. Of course in the institution there are different levels. Some floors have drug addicts, alcohol addicts, and LGBT treatments. But the main treatment is gay services. In Summerlin, Nevada, a boy by the name of Brendon Urie happens to have the most Mormon parents in the universe, well that's his opinion. He comes out to his parents and it doesn't go well. They got so worked up about it that they tried interventions, church, family meetings etc. But nothing worked because you can't exactly change someone's sexual orientation. So in response they had to get something bigger involved. They sent him to 'Center of Behavioral Health.' When he went he knew nothing was going to change, things only got worse. He met a boy named Ryan Ross.

The sex industry was a dangerous place, everyone knew that. Sure, it had its perks, but for glamour model Ryan Ross, the only perk was being asked to partake in a photoshoot with gorgeous pornstar Brendon Urie, a man he both hated and admired. That single photoshoot might just have been the detonation that started everything: the lies, the affairs, the heartbreak, the scheming - in order to stay sane, you had to keep your hands to yourself. And for someone like Brendon, it would be the hardest thing he'd ever had to do. Because when you fall, you bring everyone else down with you. "How can you be okay with yourself knowing that you caused all...this?" "I'm never okay with myself, Ryan. Ever." ---------------------------------------------------------------------------

It's been 1 year since the split. Brendon isn't taking things to well, even with the help of Spencer, he still feels like a big piece of himself was taken out. So he takes matter into his own hands and deals with the problem but only to find out that it's not as easy as it seems.